A few mornings ago I made Cristian a yummy steak, egg, and fried turkey breakfast. He was sitting in the living room playing a game on his phone,and I ducked into the bedroom for a few seconds. I walked back out into the kitchen, and there is Violet, sitting up in her daddy's camp chair (because our other real chair broke), sampling his delicious grub. This is significant because somehow she figured out a way to climb up INTO the chair all by herself. So there you have it, she's becoming even more mobile and is just oh so proud of herself. Man she's adorable.
We had our first primary time this last Sunday. I was called in a few weeks ago to be the First Counselor. I was so excited the day it happened, and the Sunday I was set apart. But the days following up to my first lesson I was full of anxiety and on the verge of backing out. Seriously. Then Sunday came and I had an idea of what I would do and what do you know? None of the kids showed up. Violet and I wound up going home and my shaking heart was calmed for a few days. Then the anxiety started in again. This last Sunday I gave my first lesson on "Being Thankful I Can Taste And Smell". I brought a few things for Jase (basically the only kid who shows up for the lessons) to taste and smell; perfume, limes, salt, sugar, and cinnamon. It was fine, but I honestly just felt a little bad for the kid. Being the only little guy in the class, with three girl teachers, plus Violet would be a little...strange I think. Violet enjoyed herself, especially music time with the instruments and songs, and she didn't fuss or cry the whole time. This was surprising because her nap time falls about the time we're in the middle of Primary. All around it was okay. Next Sunday I'm in charge of directing music time....so.... that will be easy.
I'm really glad Violet got into it. :D
Cristian is doing really well. It looks like he will soon become the store manager. I only say this because his boss is doing training to be the new District Manager, and Cristian starts manager training. He's pretty excited about it, he would like to be more financially stable, which is a worthy desire. I worry about the longer hours he will be working. I already miss him so much with the hours he works now. I guess we'll see what happens. Extra money would be nice, but I'm very happy with where things are right now. I'm happy. And with this new calling I feel as though I may be doing something right. Not like I felt everything I was doing before was wrong, but church is hard.
It's a hard thing still.
And I think it's just something I'll worry and wonder about for awhile.
I sure do love my family. Cristian and Violet are the two things in my life which make me the happiest.
A few weeks ago an opportunity arose where I could go to Spain with Violet. When things didn't work out I was more disappointed then I thought I would be. It has me in a funk for a few days, wondering when I would be able to travel again. It's such a huge part of my life. And it's something I truly enjoy and I feel makes me a better person. It's refreshes my mind and body and normal day life seems okay. I didn't feel okay for awhile. I started thinking about if I would give up what I have now to have those opportunities. I looked at Cristian and Violet and it wasn't even really a question. I would give up anything for those two. And there will be opportunities to travel, just perhaps not as many or as often. But what I have no is the best thing in the world. I couldn't ask for more then a loving husband who I love back, and a beautiful, happy, healthy daughter who makes me smile and gives me purpose. I am so blessed and so in love with where I'm at right now. Where Cristian and I are at, and where we all are as a family.
Sighs. Love.
