LGN diet start up

It looks like we need to spray our house again. We've got spiders coming out of all the drains and sinks. Really freaking me out, so tonight when Cristian gets off work we're going to spray all the windows and doors, the chimney, the sinks, everywhere and hopefully we don't see anymore for awhile-if ever.
My 6 weeks is up today for not working out and doing hardcore physical activity. So tomorrow I'm heading to the gym after Violet's second feed and I couldn't be more excited. Been going stir crazy in the house and have had some minor bipolar-like episodes which makes me think that getting out and doing some more things for me would be good for, well, our whole family. It'll mean being up pretty early, and I'm worried about not finding some time during the day to get a nap in...but hopefully after a week or two of sticking to it I'll have more energy, feel a lot better and maybe all the things that have been frustrating me will seem more manageable.

Been trying to spend lots of time with Violet outside since she enjoys it so much, and since it's actually really good for me too. Also. Cristian and I have a bet. He thinks that I can't catch up to him as far as skin tone does, but I haven't been out in the sun as I normally am in summer because I'm no working at the pool currently. If he wins the bet by August that he's darker than me, he wants tickets to Germany? Um..ok. I haven't decided what my prize will be, and it's the only one that matter because I WILL be winning this bet.

Good news:
Violet's blessing dress if finished, we just need to figure out when her blessing will happen.
Cristian got a raise at work which we're both really excited about.
I can get back into my work out groove starting tomorrow.
Had some amazing grilled burgers with Cristian at his job this afternoon.


Cristian is doing a great job at work, and he's doing so well taking care of Violet and her crazy mom. Especially with all the spiders, crazy episodes, etc. I love him so much and I hope things get better with me so I can start taking better care of him. I've kind of been a mess lately.

Right now I'm out at my parents watching "So You Think You Can Dance?". Gonna finish up here, do some grocery shopping, clean our house up a little bit, and hopefully get some dinner going. All of this as long as my darling daughter cooperates. Things are good, and they're about to get better :D

Watermelon

I love Thursdays.
Cristian's day off.
He had some things to do in the morning, so I spent my morning with Violet which ended up with us playing at the park near our house. My mom came down a little later with some ice cream and we spent a little time walking around the park in the sunshine. It was great, and I love the new little sling my cousin Maria got me to put Violet in. And she loves it to.
Can I just say I'm so happy my little one is a sun baby? She loves it. And I hope that sticks with her as she grows up.

Later we went on a drive to Bear Lake. I figured there wouldn't be much in the way of sandy beaches, but I was hoping for a little bit of rock we could all walk along. No such luck. The Lake is still very high and there wasn't much room for walking around. It was still good though and Cristian and I had a good chat on the way up there. After some lunch we headed home and once there I decided since we didn't get to the swimming pool, we'd have water time in our yard. I was expecting her to be all awake and excited but as soon as her little body hit the warm water combined with the bright sunshine she fell asleep in her little bath. Hilarious. But it was fun for mom and dad to watch her just bob around in there for awhile. Here she is all passed out lol.
And then this is after we pulled her out of the back and had her in the shade before we headed inside. She looks so sad about it doesn't she? Hope this means she's a water baby like her mommy! And Cristian... I actually really like this photo of him. There aren't many where he's just smiling but this is a step in that direction. He's so handsome.
We ended our day watching Hell's Kitchen on our rickety old couch with Violet squawking and carrying on in the background. We had a pretty early night to with her, and mom got 7 hours of sleep. A short hour feeding time, and another 5 hour nap after that. Good times.
Our life is good. So happy, so happy, so happy!
PS, her grandma bought her the adorable watermelon suit.

This is my husband with our sweet little girl on Father's Day. He's pretty sexy if I do say so myself and I LOVE this picture of him (though I wish he was smiling instead of poking his tongue out). And what in the world is Violet doing? Lol.

It was a good day. He went fishing with his friends in the morning, hung out with us at First Dam in the afternoon and then went with his friends again later in the evening to watch "the game" somewhere. I don't know what game it was, nor do I care- I'm just glad he had some fun and spent some time with his friends. Happy Father's Day to him right?

Tomorrow we're going to the pool with Violet. I'm so excited to get her in her cute little watermelon suit and head to play in the water!


Yesterday afternoon I went with my cousin Maria to First Dam with her kids (Railee Jo and Chantry) to feed the ducks. It was amazing, and talking with her about everything going on was refreshing. She's so happy and positive about being a mom, which is exactly how I feel about my new role and place in life. Most people I talk to ( with the exception of my own mom, Maria, and her mom) seem to have a negative opinion about it. I mean, if you didn't want to have kids.. why did you? And even if your experience is negative, why would you feel the need to share that with other people who are thoroughly enjoying it? I don't get it. The thoughts and opinions I've heard surrounding being pregnant and being a mom have just been such a surprise. Especially for the small town I live in. It's crazy, but I'm glad I have someone to spend time with who loves her kids and all the hard things that go with it. That's how I want to be. And that's how I feel I am.
I'm down 24 lbs.


This is her. My angel. My world. My everything.
I've never been happier.

Things are going well with our family. We've paid off some more things which is a HUGE relief. And it looks like we'll be getting approved for some more financial help here soon-which also will be a huge weight off my shoulders. Things are looking amazing!

One Month

Yes. Violet is exactly one month old today. I definitely don't believe it. At least not all the way. The only proof there is of the fact is the growing rolls culminating on my babies thighs. She's definitely putting on some baby fat weight and is gradually becoming more alert. To celebrate her 1 month I'm taking some more photos today. I had everything planned out, but of course as it goes with most things these days it was foiled slightly. I can't find the mocassins her grandpa bought for her! They've been sitting on my dresser for the last several weeks and then I go to use them.. and abracadabra-they're out of here. Cristian doesn't know where they're at either. It's quite a conundrum. I hope they turn up!

Yesterday was awesome. We spent our morning getting things done. Heading to the banks, talking with a rep at the hospital to get some coverage. Contacting old employers to give us termination notices and then Summerfest. It was WONDERFUL to walk around, get some sunshine, enjoy some food and get a few things for Violet. We ran into a few people we know, and yours truly got herself a Henna tattoo. It's pretty sweet if I do say so myself. Mermaid. Yep. Whatever. Later in the day we came home and had movie night. It was a really good day.

Which was good because our night turned out to be a strange one. Cristian's been having weird nightmares lately. Along with the nightmares has come a few other oddities like sleep talking, and if it's not talking it's weird noises you'd probably only hear in a horror movie. Totally creeps me out when I'm super sensitive to sound lately. Last night he sat up in bed, mumbled a few thing rolled over and crashed again. Later, when I was getting up with Violet I left her on the floor for a minute while I grabbed a drink. I came back in, put her back in her crib and went to get back in bed when he threw his pillow across the room, snatched mine, rolled over on it and fell back asleep. What? Yeah I don't know. And he doesn't remember anything so.. whatever. Maybe I should start recording this stuff. He's funny.

So for today:
Taking care of my parents gardens and lawn.
Should probably help Talisa out by helping clean the kitchen.
Wait for bright eyes to fall into a deeper slumber so we can play dress up and take some pictures.
Heading back to Summerfest later this afternoon to get a few things.
And then once Cristian is off work we're going to buy me a belt and TW.

Good things ahead.
I'm so happy :D

Good Things

My sweet little bright eyes is growing up so fast. I can't believe she's coming up on 1 month. It makes me happy and sad simultaneously. I love how little, fragile and dependent on me she is, but I also am excited about her becoming a little more sturdy and playful. I've heard her giggle a few times and the feeling it gives me isn't something I can really explain. She's a newborn so it's natural for her to really only be content when she's full and has had enough sleep. This means if she's awake she's mostly crying. And if she's not doing that, then she's sleeping.

It's been a little wearing on me. And I'm sure Cristian to. It's made me feel sometimes that I have a sad baby. I'm ready for the giggles and smiles and babble. I'd like to know my baby is a happy one. And I'd like her to know, her parents are happy parents also.

I'm starting to figure out different things she likes. When I give her a bath she doesn't really like it when I'm sponging down her body (because it gets cold) but she LOVES when I wash and massage her hair and brush it afterwards. And when she's sad a quick solution is to walk with her outside. She loves the outdoors and becomes all calm and relaxed when fresh air and sunshine hit her cute little face. And my favorite, when she's finished eating and she's got milk all over her face. She sits there, all stuffed to the gills and content, eyes closed and lips all puckered. It's moments like those I'm clinging to, the ones where I can look down on her beautiful face and I know without a doubt in that particular moment my Violet is happy. I love when she's happy.

Right now I'm out at my parents house, she's sleeping on the ground next to me- her hands all stretched out above her head.I can't get over how beautiful she is. I don't know how I'm going to do this, be her mom and figure all these things out but I know I want to. And that I have to. Because I love her more than anything.

Cristian is being such a good husband and daddy. It continually amazes me how much he really does love both of us. His crazy wife and a needy daughter. I've been finding spiders all over our apartment lately. I mean, that would be gross for your average girl, but for me it's absolutely traumatic. I get all itchy and shivery when I think about them. Putting garbage into a bag we have in our bathroom and seeing one crawling around in there was what put me at my wits end last night. I was packing up some of Violet's things to come and sleep out at my parents when my sweet husband told me he would search the entire house and kill any he found if we would only stay at home with him. He literally got down on his knees and combed the carpet looking for any creepy crawling thing that could potentially cause me more discomfort. He emptied all the garbage cans and then went out and bought some things to fumigate our place. I don't know what I'd do without him. He takes really good care of us.

As we were laying in bed last night just pillow talking and cuddling a thought occured to me:
"Oh no.."
"What is it honey?"
"I'm the worse wife in the world."
"What?"
"I totally forgot today was Father's Day"
"Babe, that's not till' the 17th"
"Oh good... lol"


I've been thinking the last couple weeks of what I could put together for him. I have a few ideas but will refrain from sharing them on here in the off chance he reads this. He deserves everything. I'm so lucky to be married to my best friend.

Bright Eyes

All the bits I never want to forget.

Food

Had a dream last night in which my little family was living in a beautiful white beach house somewhere in California. Nothing really exciting happened. I just remember walking around our white spacious home, and looking out the windows towards the beautiful blue sea. Violet was there, she was bigger and walking though I couldn't see her face. She was wearing a cute little jumper and her dad was wandering around the house doing something.

It was a nice dream, which was a relief since both of us have been having quite a few nightmares lately.We don't know why. But as I was feeding Violet this morning around 3:40am Cristian woke up to one. Told me. Then fell back asleep. I think he tried to tell me about it this morning while he was getting ready for work and I was feeding Violet again-but I can't remember what it was about because I was so out of it.

Anyways.
The last couple days have been a little rough with her. She doesn't want to fall asleep until around 12:20am, and until then she cries and fusses, and wants to be held, and then wants to be on the floor, and then wants to be fed every 15 minute, then stops.. needless to say a slight impatience with her has been creeping in every once in awhile and I've had to put her in a safe place and then walk away for a little while until the impatience goes away. I've figured out one solution for when she gets like this-taking her outside helps her to calm down for a bit which works out since we both should probably be getting more sun.

Some good things though:

She's starting to sleep better at night.
AND the best news so far, I heard miss bright eyes GIGGLE yesterday. I heard a foreign noise from her, looked over and she had this big smile on her face, was waving her little arms around and was giggling. It was over quick. I think the giggle was just as foreign to her as it was to me because she suddenly got this surprised look on her face, got super quite, and then burst into tears. It was pretty funny. It's fun to watch her getting used to her body and discovering what all the different parts can do. She does this thing where she pokes out her little tongue. So cute.

I'm loving it, even though there are frustrations now and then.

Photos!

Miss Bright Eyes.
I'm in love.

Show Stopper

My little girl knows how to draw a crowd. The other day I walked into the store to purchase some diapers, I was surrounded in an instant by about 10 people all admiring Violet. It was pretty funny, and it took me a little while to get out of there because of her constantly growing fan base. She's darling, and also has WAY more friends than I do which is funny. I need to get some more pictures up here, and probably print some actual ones out because she's growing up so fast! I can't believe she's already 2 weeks old. What??

We've gotten into a pretty good routine as far as her eating and sleeping goes. And it feels SO GOOD to be able to move around the way I used to. No more heaving myself around anymore or struggling to tie my shoes and shave my legs. We even played some Dance Central 2 the other night on the Kinect and I've still got my mojo- though to be fair-Cristian DID win the first match. Also, something else more epic... I spent 2 hours and 7 minutes away from her over the weekend. That's the most time I've EVER spent away from her so far. We went and saw "SnowWhite and the Huntsmen" with our friends Connor and Joni. Auntie Talisa and her friend Maddie watched her for us. It was rough, not going to lie. I kept checking my phone throughout the movie and Cristian kept leaning over and whispering "It's okay Chelsea, she's fine. I know you're worried but they would call if something was wrong." He's pretty great.

He's settled into this whole husband/daddy thing quite well. And he's been there to help me through all the frustrations and tears when I've struggled with "mom" things. I'm pretty lucky to have found him, and I LOVE being married to him. He's honestly my best friend and I think Violet is pretty damn lucky to have him as a daddy :D. He's so cute. He keeps talking about how he's gonna have to beat up all the boys ( I get to beat up all the girls) and how beautiful she is. I LOVE seeing him be that way with her.

Anyways. The movie was okay, had some super weird parts in it, but...uh.. yeah.
And once home he was right, everything was fine-though I did feel relieved to be back with my little girl. She's everything to me.

So we've been trying to put together a little vacation. Cristian gets a week of paid vacation once he's worked at this place for 6 months.. and we're coming up on that THIS month :D. Thinking of getting 4 other couples together to rent a houseboat down at Lake Powell for a week (5 days technically). One of the couples we've invited and who are "down" to go (Taya and Jake) have a boat and jet skis and said they would bring all of that if we can get this together. Can you imagine? 5 days of nothing but sunshine, boating, water skiing, fishing, camping, and having a good time. I really hope it all works out and with the deal they have going on right now it would only be about $80 per person and everything's included. Really hope this works out, we wouldn't go until about September (apparently that's the best time to go) which gives us a little bit more time to get organized.

Love our life.
Love my family.