My sweet little bright eyes is growing up so fast. I can't believe she's coming up on 1 month. It makes me happy and sad simultaneously. I love how little, fragile and dependent on me she is, but I also am excited about her becoming a little more sturdy and playful. I've heard her giggle a few times and the feeling it gives me isn't something I can really explain. She's a newborn so it's natural for her to really only be content when she's full and has had enough sleep. This means if she's awake she's mostly crying. And if she's not doing that, then she's sleeping.
It's been a little wearing on me. And I'm sure Cristian to. It's made me feel sometimes that I have a sad baby. I'm ready for the giggles and smiles and babble. I'd like to know my baby is a happy one. And I'd like her to know, her parents are happy parents also.
I'm starting to figure out different things she likes. When I give her a bath she doesn't really like it when I'm sponging down her body (because it gets cold) but she LOVES when I wash and massage her hair and brush it afterwards. And when she's sad a quick solution is to walk with her outside. She loves the outdoors and becomes all calm and relaxed when fresh air and sunshine hit her cute little face. And my favorite, when she's finished eating and she's got milk all over her face. She sits there, all stuffed to the gills and content, eyes closed and lips all puckered. It's moments like those I'm clinging to, the ones where I can look down on her beautiful face and I know without a doubt in that particular moment my Violet is happy. I love when she's happy.
Right now I'm out at my parents house, she's sleeping on the ground next to me- her hands all stretched out above her head.I can't get over how beautiful she is. I don't know how I'm going to do this, be her mom and figure all these things out but I know I want to. And that I have to. Because I love her more than anything.
Cristian is being such a good husband and daddy. It continually amazes me how much he really does love both of us. His crazy wife and a needy daughter. I've been finding spiders all over our apartment lately. I mean, that would be gross for your average girl, but for me it's absolutely traumatic. I get all itchy and shivery when I think about them. Putting garbage into a bag we have in our bathroom and seeing one crawling around in there was what put me at my wits end last night. I was packing up some of Violet's things to come and sleep out at my parents when my sweet husband told me he would search the entire house and kill any he found if we would only stay at home with him. He literally got down on his knees and combed the carpet looking for any creepy crawling thing that could potentially cause me more discomfort. He emptied all the garbage cans and then went out and bought some things to fumigate our place. I don't know what I'd do without him. He takes really good care of us.
As we were laying in bed last night just pillow talking and cuddling a thought occured to me:
"Oh no.."
"What is it honey?"
"I'm the worse wife in the world."
"What?"
"I totally forgot today was Father's Day"
"Babe, that's not till' the 17th"
"Oh good... lol"
I've been thinking the last couple weeks of what I could put together for him. I have a few ideas but will refrain from sharing them on here in the off chance he reads this. He deserves everything. I'm so lucky to be married to my best friend.
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