Saturday, February 23, 2013

Beat

I feel like I've been doing a really good job of being patient with my baby. I don't ever really get mad at her about things but lately her fussing and whining whenever we're at home, or it's just me and her in the room has been wearing on me. I don't really understand it. She's totally fine with her grandma and aunts but as soon as it's just me, or we're spending the day and home and it's constant griping. I try and engage her. I read books to her, paint her nails, I've made slime, let her play with shaving cream, all those things.



I don't really know what to do anymore.....

Thursday, February 21, 2013

Day Four

I'm still going strong, though I think I may have eaten a bite or two more then I should have tonight for dinner. Just means I'll have to work harder tomorrow morning. Things ARE getting easier every day.


I'm tired tonight though.

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Day Three

Well, it's definitely getting harder. I went over to my parents house this afternoon and low and behold chocolate cupcakes were being made. I stayed strong, but there were a few moments where my craving for chocolate almost outweighed my determination to make it at least a couple weeks before trusting myself to have a limited amount of the good stuff.
This mornings workout was pretty rough. I keep thinking that each work out I do will get all the kinks out from the previous one. I just keep getting more and more sore. It's good though.

I told myself when I started this that I was only going to weigh myself once a week. Sometimes I do it everyday and it ends up driving me crazy. I couldn't wait till the end of the week though. I'm SO hungry all the time because my body is still trying to get used to all of this, and I'm exhausted and stiff because I just started hitting the gym really hard again. But I did it. I weighed myself after 3 days and the results I found were very exciting. I've lost 6lbs in 3 days.
I'll take it.

Today was pretty good. My mom and I took Violet for a walk around the block. I'm so happy that the weather it starting to warm up (slightly)  and that today was full of sunshine. We also got the rest of our tax return so that boosted my mood a little bit more too. Things are going really well.

Now. Time for another all fruit smoothie and the latest episode of The Biggest Loser. 

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Day Two

Today has definitely been a little bit harder. I made it to the work out this morning, but my 30 min. warm up didn't help to loosen up my body. And I was stiff and sluggish throughout the whole thing. There were good things. I got a good sweat lock going. And I did try my hardest. I also made a new acquaintance. Making friends is hard lol.

Anyway.
We went down to Ogden to do a little shopping. It was nice getting out of town for a little bit, and Violet was a perfect little angel.


We arrived back home early and as soon as walked through the door she started whining. I'm running out of things to occupy her with. Today I made Slime for her. It kept her busy and happy for about an hour but then she started whining and fussing again.



I don't really know what to do with her at this point.
So right now, while Cristian's out celebrating Connor's birthday I'm laying snuggled up on the couch drinking an all fruit smoothie and watching The Bachelor.



Night everyone!

Monday, February 18, 2013

Day One

Well, I survived the first workout of the Core Fit Program I've started. Waking up wasn't as hard as I thought since I was actually kind of pumped to go. I'll confess... I was a little worried I would show up and the only people there would be people who perhaps don't really..NEED to be there. Ya know?  But it was a good mix, and even though I'm not the quickest person there..it's always nice to compete a little with my fellow athletes. But if I'm being REALLY honest the biggest competition there is going to be myself. It was a circut that we had to go through and if we got done with the first round we went to the second but cut everything in half.

I made it through the first part, and had 2 exercises left when he called time and had us come over to stretch out. It was good. I worked up a pretty good sweat, and I've been feeling good all today. I'm really excited to go tomorrow. It'll be a different kind of work out with a different trainer so.. I'm really looking forward to it. And my eating today has been good. I have a feeling I'm going to feel very hungry tonight before going to bed, but I have a game plan. My freezer is stocked with fixing to make smoothies.

So I had a smoothie for breakfast, a subway 6 in. sandwhich for lunch, and am now trying to figure out what to eat for a snack before heading home to get some dinner on the table. On the menu tonight is lemongrass chicken drumsticks with quinoa. Should be good.

Story for the day:

I've been out at my parents house with Violet. I was on the computer just.. ya know, blogging, FB, whatever, and I realized I hadn't heard her babble for a few minutes (I'm learning this usually means trouble). I started looking for her and found her halfway up the stairs.... we don't even HAVE stairs in our house so I have NO IDEA where she learned to climb. I guess we're going to have to keep a closer eye on her and work on teaching her how to climb down the stairs without getting hurt. She's learning SO FAST I can't even believe it. It was pretty exciting. I tried to take a video to send to Cristian but of COURSE she wouldn't cooperate as soon as she saw me trying to record.

Anyway. Good day.

Nerves

Tomorrow ( today I should day) I begin a Core Fit Program at my local gym. I'm pretty excited about it. It's 6 days a week, 10 different classes a day to choose from, and goes on for a couple of months. For the last little while I've been trying to figure out how to become a work out from home mom. It's not working for me, I've realized the environment in crucial for my success at anything. Home is home. Work is work. School is school. So for me to be successful at my health goals I need to be at the gym.
It means waking up at ungodly hours but I wanted to write down a list of reasons for why this is important to me....so on those days where I don't want to go, or I'm struggling with my meal plans I can look back on this and remember why I started this and why it was important to me in the first place.

This is in no particular order.
They are all equally important to me.

1. To be able to sit (and stand) comfortably without rolls coming over the top of my pants, or love handles squishing out the tops of my jeans.
2. To not have to hold my breath to get my pants, socks or shoes on.
3. To not feel like I'm smothering my baby girl while I'm breast feeding her.
4. To not hear the bed creak so much when I get in and out of it.
5. So the car doesn't shake too and fro when I get in and out of it.
6. To have better skin, hair, and nails.
7. To not get tired running up the stairs.
8. To not feel like I have to wear a sweater, coat, or jacket to cover up the fact my jeans don't fit quite right.
9. To not feel so hot and in the way all the time.
10. To be an example to my husband and daughter.
11. To get out of the house and have something for me to do ( just me) 6 days a week.
12. To look good this summer riding my bike, or playing with my family on the beach.
13. To make my husband proud, and to keep his eyes on me and only me.
14. To show others moms that it's possible to get your body back after having a baby.
15. To be able to buy new cute clothes.
16. Because I used to be super healthy, and super fit, and I want to be that person again.
17. To prove to myself that if I work hard enough, I can accomplish what I set out to do. No matter what it is.
18. To feel comfortable naked.
19. To be strong.
20. Because I hate back fat.
21. Because I want to relearn how to eat healthily and to be aware of calories.
22. To weigh myself at the end of every week and feel HAPPY.
23. To be able to run without that heavy feelings and chuz bouncing everywhere.
24. Cause I want MILF status.
25. To not feel embarrassed when going out to eat because I won't BE overweight.
26. To feel better (no more aches and pains from not working out, or being unhealthy)


I'm sure I'll come up with more, but for now, there's my list.
And now for my goal.

I would like to lose at least 50 lbs in 14 weeks.
I want to be exactly what I weighed before getting pregnant by Violet's 1 year birthday.


I start in 3 hours. Guess I better go back to bed and try to get some rest.
Cheers!

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

SpeedWay

Today we celebrated Valentines Day early since Cristian has to work on Thursday.
I got up early (twice). Once for Violet, the other to make Cristian some breakfast.
Heart shaped bacon (which he didn't even notice), some shitty hash browns that really didn't work, scrambled eggs which turned out to runny, and a Nutella brownie cupcake thing which didn't taste, look, or smell the way I thought it would.

I don't know if he even cared that I put my heart and soul into that plate.
Maybe it's best if he doesn't since it all turned out like garbage anyways.
I tried.

Violet was a pill this morning.
Crying, fussing, pouting, throwing little tantrums.
We finally freed ourselves from her by taking her over to Grandma's house while we headed to the GoKart track.
We raced.
I won.
Yay.


Afterwards we went out to dinner at Buffalo Wild Wings.
It was pretty good but everything took so long.
It took a half hour to get our drinks.
A half hour to get our food.
A half hour to Cristian to get his second helping of HOT Wings.
A half hour to get the check.

Seriously it took FOREVER to eat dinner.
Afterwards we went to the mall real quick like to pick some things up, then it was time to drive back home.


Back at home with Violet she began fussing, and whining, and crying, and throwing tantrums (even though she was perfectly fine at Grandma and Grandpa's house). So instead of helping me with Violet, Cristian decided to take it upon himself to sit down on our couch, kick back while the screaming ensued, and play games with his friends online while I tackled her into a clean diaper and sleepy state with food and marching around the house.


Ya know.... I'm glad this Valentines Day is over.

Friday, February 8, 2013

Crickets

Well, Cristian has discovered a new jerky place in town. This places sells everything. From jerky ( obviously) to foot soles you can put in your shoes to make you look taller. Let's focus on the jerky though. They have his absolute favorite, it's made with ghost peppers ( of course) and he loves it. I think we'll probably be spending a little bit of money their until the novelty wears off. I can't deny the fact they make the best jerky I've ever, personally, tasted so... whatever. The point is, he bought crickets and larvae (maggots)...... Hhhhhh...
Violet is hilarious in her new crib.  I love waking up, looking over, and seeing her standing up in that thing looking so incredibly proud of herself. It's less awesome when she's up on two feet screaming her head off, but it's the little things ( like her cute smile peeking up over the railing) that make me happy.
She's the light of my life, and I really am lucky I don't have to work right now so I can spend all this time with her. She's so funny. She does this thing lately where she scrunches up her little nose and huffs and puffs. I don't know what she's actually doing but it's pretty cute. And her crawl! I can't get enough of her crawl.
Yesterday we had a little craft day. We made Talisa her birthday present. I still can't believe my baby sis is 18 years old. What???.... Anyway I wanted to stamp her cute little feet on a canvas in the shape of a heart, and use her finger to write the "I" and "love". She wasn't quite sure about all the purple paint, but after stamping her foot prints and writing on the canvas we let her play around in the paint a little bit. Of course she totally starts getting into the second I want to get her in the bath and washed up. It was pretty fun though. And Cristian helped me out which was exciting. I think his favorite part was painting on her tummy while she sat crying in the bathtub.

Man, the adventures of the Navas household right?

I've been working on some goals. One of them was to make dinner every night for a week. It's Friday and I can say so far I'm on track. On the menu tonight is ground turkey tacos.
Cristian's so great. I get so down sometimes about not being a good enough wife, or mom, or person in general. I'm struggling with losing the baby weight and I'm really uncomfortable most of the time. Sometimes it just gets to me. But I know for me that I need to be patient.

Other girls might just watch the fat melt off within a couple of weeks, but for me it's kind of trend that if I ever really really want something I must work incredibly hard for it. Nothing comes easy for this girl. I'm not bitter or upset about it, but I have to work and if I want to see the results I need to learn to be more consistent with what I'm doing.

So that's another of my goals. Consistency with eating right and exercising.
Valentines Day is coming up and I'm very excited for what I have planned. This year it's my turn  to plan out the date and I think it's going to be a winner. I've made plans for us to go to the FastKart Track and race go karts. I think it'll be pretty fun, and I really hope Cristian enjoys it, and maybe we can get some dinner or dessert while down there also.

Today's been a good day. I spent most of the day out at my parents with Cristian at work. Violet took a nap and started snoring so loud. Oh my gosh, she's so cute. I miss Cristian. But before I go run and grab him from work I'm going to get a work out in. Cheers

Monday, February 4, 2013

Personal Heater

One of my favorite things about Cristian is he's a warm body.
I used to be that way. Then with Violet the more pregnant I became, the colder I got. That girl to this day still has all the heat this mommy used to harbor. I guess it's ok though. I would do anything for her, including allowing her to keep that part of me.

I think I got lucky though.
In the cold morning when Violet likes to wake up early, it's FREEZING in our little house. Mostly it's okay, because mostly at 6 in the morning both Cristian and I are snuggled up under a multitude of blankets.  Having to get our from under all that goodness is pretty tragic, especially because it takes only seconds for my sad skin to freeze over and take root in my very bones.

But the best part after this whole ordeal; getting up, grabbing my little dot, feeding her, then putting her back; is climbing back into bed and snuggling up next to my handsome man. And it works out because as far as I can tell he really doesn't seem to mind at all.

All of this made me realize that I really don't mind being cold, as long as I have my special someone to warm me up :D

It was a good morning.
Which eludes to this being a great day :D

Later:




Here are a few more things I love about Cristian.
Right now he's reading her bilingual colors and objects books. He's totally into it. And I totally love it. I also love when I make a meal and he inhales it because he finds it delicious. This is a big deal since he's about the biggest skeptic and critique on the planet when it comes to food. Maybe he's just being nice because I'm his wife, and he knows how intimidated I am in the kitchen... but when he scarfs it down like he did tonight (chicken parmesean casserole) I get a warm fuzzy feeling and for a moment I feel like a really awesome wife and home maker. Having that feeling every now is something I need because most of the time I just feel like I'm under qualified.

I also like how he gives me foot rubs every night.
I'm totally spoiled.
I hope I do a good job of spoiling him.


Saturday, February 2, 2013

Goal

1. Relearn how to do the splits by stretching techniques found on Pinterest.

I really just love Pinterest. I like how I can pin basically everything and it takes up absolutely no clutter in real life. I'm a Pinterest hoarder, as far as I'm concerned, It's socially acceptable.

Friday, February 1, 2013

Sticky Beak

Well, my child is fully mobile. I wasn't prepared for it and am still scrambling to keep up with her wounded animal crawl (video to ensure soon). She's into absolutely everything; dirty leaves dragged in from inside off the bottom of our shoes, old crumbs hiding under cupboard doors and drawers, little bits of paper and fluff she can pick up off the carpet ... I mean you name it, and she's got it,  and will be making it's way into her little open baby-bird trap.

She refuses to open her mouth for her mother, but grandma certainly has the touch. When grandma goes down to scoop something gross out of her mouth she opens wide and lets grandma take care of business. At least I know who to go to if I fail to retrieve something. Grandma.

I've started doing TaeBo with Billy Blanks in the mornings and evenings. It's a really good work out, and I actually have enjoyed working out from home. Violet scampers around underfoot and tries to climb onto my belly when I'm doing ab and other core exercises which makes things interesting but I feel good and have lost 6 lbs this last month. Along with this my eating has changed. I'm not sure if your metabolism can change after having a baby, and how lingering hormones effect weight loss but I've found that if I eat less carbs such as pasta, bread, and rice, and eat MORE vegetables and fruit I feel much better. It's also been several months since my last item of fast food (aren't we all proud lol). But things are looking great, and I feel much better than I have in months..so.. good for me.

Cristian has been such an amazing support. He keeps me on track and is good about complimenting me on the progress that I've been making. I don't know what I would do without him. He's a champion and I'm thankful more and more each day that I found him. He's been so amazing and support my non fast food, less meat, and no candy ways and never tries to discourage or tempt me in ways that could keep me from my goal. I think this is key, since I really could use all the help I can get. I never knew that having a baby would take up so much of my time. It is, of course, all worth it, But I was not prepared.

Things are getting back on track now though.
I have a routine. Now I think the only things that I really need to work on is my eating. Things have been better recently, but I think I could still use some work in the meal planning arena. I've never been one to spend much time in the kitchen, and I'm intimidated by trying new recipes but.. things are improving.

Cristian was promoted and far as I can tell he likes the new position much more then the original one that he had. And I can't complain. When he's happy, I'm much happier to.

We recently celebrated our 1 year anniversary. We went out to Le'None' and had a fabulous meal, and earlier in the day Cristian surprised me with a beautiful bouquet of wild flowers. It was wonderful to have a night without sweet Violet, and she had a great time having a play date with one of our neighbors in the ward. More play dates will have to be planned since I'd really like Violet to be around more children instead of her dear mother all day lol.

Good things to come. And Valentines Day is coming up!