Nerves

Tomorrow ( today I should day) I begin a Core Fit Program at my local gym. I'm pretty excited about it. It's 6 days a week, 10 different classes a day to choose from, and goes on for a couple of months. For the last little while I've been trying to figure out how to become a work out from home mom. It's not working for me, I've realized the environment in crucial for my success at anything. Home is home. Work is work. School is school. So for me to be successful at my health goals I need to be at the gym.
It means waking up at ungodly hours but I wanted to write down a list of reasons for why this is important to me....so on those days where I don't want to go, or I'm struggling with my meal plans I can look back on this and remember why I started this and why it was important to me in the first place.

This is in no particular order.
They are all equally important to me.

1. To be able to sit (and stand) comfortably without rolls coming over the top of my pants, or love handles squishing out the tops of my jeans.
2. To not have to hold my breath to get my pants, socks or shoes on.
3. To not feel like I'm smothering my baby girl while I'm breast feeding her.
4. To not hear the bed creak so much when I get in and out of it.
5. So the car doesn't shake too and fro when I get in and out of it.
6. To have better skin, hair, and nails.
7. To not get tired running up the stairs.
8. To not feel like I have to wear a sweater, coat, or jacket to cover up the fact my jeans don't fit quite right.
9. To not feel so hot and in the way all the time.
10. To be an example to my husband and daughter.
11. To get out of the house and have something for me to do ( just me) 6 days a week.
12. To look good this summer riding my bike, or playing with my family on the beach.
13. To make my husband proud, and to keep his eyes on me and only me.
14. To show others moms that it's possible to get your body back after having a baby.
15. To be able to buy new cute clothes.
16. Because I used to be super healthy, and super fit, and I want to be that person again.
17. To prove to myself that if I work hard enough, I can accomplish what I set out to do. No matter what it is.
18. To feel comfortable naked.
19. To be strong.
20. Because I hate back fat.
21. Because I want to relearn how to eat healthily and to be aware of calories.
22. To weigh myself at the end of every week and feel HAPPY.
23. To be able to run without that heavy feelings and chuz bouncing everywhere.
24. Cause I want MILF status.
25. To not feel embarrassed when going out to eat because I won't BE overweight.
26. To feel better (no more aches and pains from not working out, or being unhealthy)


I'm sure I'll come up with more, but for now, there's my list.
And now for my goal.

I would like to lose at least 50 lbs in 14 weeks.
I want to be exactly what I weighed before getting pregnant by Violet's 1 year birthday.


I start in 3 hours. Guess I better go back to bed and try to get some rest.
Cheers!