Alright, it's time for some real talk. I post a lot about all the things Violet, and I do together, and they are all things I totally love and enjoy. However, there are some things I've discovered and am STILL discovering which I totally DO NOT enjoy trying to do with my 2 1/2 year old. Despite what it may seem like sometimes, it is not always sunshine and rainbows over here. I get frustrated and annoyed and tired of sharing certain things with Violet. I almost feel weird discussing this because I don't want anyone to get it twisted. But, knowing it may happen I decided to post this anyways and you all can judge me if you feel so inclined.
A Mommy Confession:
1. Sharing food with her.. I will share the food off my late with Violet until the day I die if I have to, however, on the rare occasion I can eat an entire meal without having to feed her a bite or two, or fifteen it is truly incredible..ha ha...edible..get it? Anyway....
2. Exercising. Sure, it's totally funny watching her try to mimic my burpees, plank walks, and power jumps but OH MY GOSH. I swear it is her solitary mission in life while I am trying to do a workout video to get in my every way, to need to go potty, to want a piece of cheese, to yell "mom, mom, mom!" over and over again, to fall off the couch and need to be cuddled, to roll her toys out and want to show me each and every one of them, by shoving them in my face, while I'm trying to do a tricep dip. Seriously. Again, on those oh so rare days where I can get through a 40 minute circuit with no interruptions or distractions I think about doing 3 in a row because it is so NICE.
3. Sleeping. On the EXTREMELY rare occasion when Violet WILL NOT go to sleep in her bed and is keeping up our neighbors, we will bring her into our room and have her sleep. I HATE it. Taking a nap with her during the day is a different story, that I really love. But at night, when the sleep is longer then about 40 minutes I really dislike sharing a bed with her and Cristian. It usually ends up with her feet in my face, her hogging the entire bed, me constantly adjusting how I'm sleeping because I fear smothering her accidently, adjusting Cristian for the same reasons, and eventually me moving to her room where there is a twin sized bed. Of course Violet sleeps WONDERFULLY because our new bed is amazing. That twin bed though provides less then decent sleep and the rest of the following day I am sore, tired-obviously-and extra irritable. Thankfully she does a pretty good job of going to sleep.
4. Clothes shopping. After doing this twice I vowed to never try this again. And I won't. It is the worst. She's 2 1/2, she cannot just walk around with me without getting lost in the racks of clothes(on purpose because someone....*cough cough Cristian*, had to teach her how to play hide and seek in department stores). She peeks under changing room dividers, has to "go potty" as soon as I've undressed and am getting ready to make my way through the clothes I picked out to try on, and whines about suddenly needing to be carried-everywhere. I realize these are kid things, it's better for me to do my clothes shopping on my own though-no doubt about it.
5. Spending time with my friends. Vi baby, I love you, but I do not like bringing you along to chill with my friends. I spend the entire time totally distracted and not able to really focus on the person I'm with. And it goes the other way to. I never feel like I have their full attention and I leave our hang outs feeling really unsatisfied and weird. Violet and Cristian are my life, and rightfully so. I wouldn't change them being the focus of my attention, however, there is more to my life then being Violet's mother, and Cristian's best friend and wife. Those are the most important roles I play, but I am also an artist, a singer, a writer, a nature lover, an athlete, a reader, a listener and thinker, an animal enthusiast, and so much more. When I'm with my friends, I like to revisit those things, and with Violet tagging along, I can not put "mother" on pause for even a minute. I need a pause sometimes to remind me I am a mother and a wife, but also more.
And that's it. Right now those are the 5 things I prefer to do without Violet attached to my hip. And I relish in them when I have the chance. Everyone has a list like this right? :/
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