This afternoon after taking Cristian back to work, Violet and I wandered around town trying to find her some new summer sandals. I ended up looking at some other things while I was there, house stuff, clearance items, etc. I decided to try on some swim suits.
That right there was a huge risk, and what happened next proved it.
My whole weight loss/healthy resolutions journey I've made about how I feel as opposed to how I look. We don't have a full length mirror in our house, and I threw out our scale a LONG time ago because it would just get me down.
If I think hard about how I FEEL in my body it's much easier for me to keep making better decisions about the lifestyle I have, and the lifestyle I want. When you feel good, it feels good to keep going. If I feel good, and then look in the mirror and feel like I don't LOOK good, I give up.
Anyway, trying on swim suits resulted in tears in the dressing room and feelings of worthlessness and ugliness on the way home. Once home though I looked through a board I created on Pinterest labeled "Working On", selected a quick 20 minute work out to engage in and got to it.
Huge leap.
Coming home and stuffing my face with something in unhealthy proportions is more out of the Chelsea playbook then putting on some workout gear when I feel like a bag of fat and pounding out a workout. So, go me.
And I thought I would make a list of all the things I love about myself and my body right now:
1. I can run 4 miles in an hour. And I'm getting closer to 5 every day.
2. My late night snacking is slowly but consistently getting better all the time.
3. I did a hardcore treadmill interval workout last night and felt absolutely amazing afterwards.
4. I'm no longer self conscious AT ALL about walking into the gym.
5. I fought and won the urge to binge today at lunch.
6. I'm getting better at meal prep.
7. I really want to go out into my kitchen right now and bake up some chocolate chips cookies, but I'm going to make Violet and I a fruit salad instead.
Cheers!
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