Counting Down

Yeah. I think it's safe to say we both are, at this point, becoming impatient. With a little under 2 weeks to go I'm pretty tired and for some reason extremely testy. I'm not meaning to be. I think I've done a pretty good job my entire pregnancy of keeping the hormones to a minimum. Perhaps in trying so hard I repressed everything and now the festering monstrosity is all coming out. Sighs. My poor husband. We still haven't received any word on the crib we were supposed to be getting, and I'm worried because we really just can't afford to buy one right now. It wasn't really in our plan to be purchasing one so I guess we'll see what happens here in the next few days. May a miracle happen right?
We're a little frustrated with the Dr. we've been going to. Don't get me wrong, she's great. But I would like to deliver my baby vaginally, and not through a c-section. I feel my reasons are valid. It's healthier for me and the baby to do it that way, the recovery time is shorter, your chances of having to do it again with future children is MUCH higher-so I don't want to, and I feel as though the "accomplishment" factor will be greater if I can do it naturally and without surgery. And let's be honest, I really don't want a scar either ( I already have enough thank you very much) and I've heard it's a complicated thing when you're trying to breast feed. Of course no one I know has any experience with this so I can't really find anyone to talk to about it. My Dr. thinks she's 8lbs right now. Which would put her close to 10 lbs if I go full term and a week over (which is when they would decide to induce me). In that case the chances of me having to deliver her via C-section are greater, and it bothers me she would wait until that point. It's my body, it's my baby. But I feel as though I have no say in it.
My older sister Jasmin contacted me the other day and I asked her about her situation. She decided to be induced 2 weeks early because of a similar situation and had zero regrets about it. Sighs. I just don't know what to do. My next appt is on Monday-hopefully I'm dilated more and something can be arranged. I DO NOT WANT TO HAVE A C-SECTION. But everyone's acting like this desire is totally crazed or something. What's so hard to understand about it?

2 more payments and the shop is closed.
I guess there's ANOTHER thing we need to add to the list of things to get paid off, so we can't quite start with Snap-On yet because we have this other dealing..to deal with. They just keep coming up-really we just need to sit down and have everything laid out because all these surprises, along with everything else are making me really agitated.

I've been trying to think of things I can do to keep my own sanity. So I'm doing an inspiration board, and yesterday I bought some pretty boxes to put some of Violet's things in. (Pictures to come). Today I need to go and find a cork board, buy some pins and some kind of "over the door" hanger to attach it to. Also need to pic up a frame for my Bob Dylan poster, and maybe FINALLY print out some of our wedding pictures to put in the album we received at the wedding.

Also on my list of things to keep me busy today while Cristian is at work:
Fill up the car.
Pull out money for the shop.
Transfer some money into our Emergency Fund.
Grocery shopping. Other shopping. (light bulbs, soap, dust pan/brush)
And $30 spending money for Cristian to play with for the week.
Finding another bin for Violet's things.
Look up and find a place where we can both learn to kiak.
Try out the rice cooker (Mum bought Cristian one has an early b-day present).
Make a meal plan for the week (I haven't done this..ever. We'll see what happens)
And, if I get brave enough (clean the windows inside and out)-I'm planning on making some new curtains also- some that let in more light because our basement apartment is very dark. Yellow? White? We'll see.


Yesterday was Cristian's day off. We didn't do much, but we did spend some time outside at the dam. The ducks are having their babies and it was pretty fun to see: