Avengers and The Epidural

Really loving this song lately.
So tonight we have tickets to go and see "The Avengers". Cristian's been freaking out about it for a couple months now, so why he waited until yesterday afternoon to look and see if tickets were available is kind of beyond me. So I spent the better part of my day driving around to all the movie theaters ( when I told him it would be easier to just buy the tickets online) to see if they had open seats. He was at work. None of them did, so I went online and bought our tickets (I know things, he should learn this). So tonight at 9pm we're going. Not sure why I am, I'm not really into it and with how uncomfortable I feel, sitting in a movie for 2 hours really doesn't sound appealing. He was quite insistent though- I don't understand him sometimes. Connor is coming to which will be fun. We love Connor.

I think it would be hilarious ( and SO choice) if my water decides to break while we're going in, or even while we're sitting in the theater. I would like something to happen. I don't care if my labor is long and my delivery is hard-I'm ready for this little one to start making her way into the world. Bring on those contractions please!!

On that note with our birthing classes I wanted to share this little gem:

He looks pretty good right? And what a good sport he was. I think it was a good experience for him-but yeah-as far as this goes I definitely had more fun with this is particular. I liked the class and the instructor was pretty funny. I didn't necessarily learn a whole bunch of new things, but I think it was valuable information for Cristian to have. There are things that have gone on, and will go on with the rest of my pregnancy I feel will be good for him to know about and understand more. And him having a little bit more understanding as to what my body has gone through for the past 10 months is good for him to know. It hasn't been easy..even though my pregnancy has been a breeze as far as pregnancies in general go. I think it was good for him to understand what will go on with me after our little girl is here also. The recovery, things that may or may not present themselves. I secretly think the class is mostly for the men of the women heading into this situation :D.

She talked about the epidural. I knew I wouldn't like hearing about it, and I prayed they wouldn't show up the needle (which they didn't-except on a little diagram via powerpoint). Just talking about it was enough to make me question whether or not it was something I wanted to do. I kind of started to panic and there are a lot of things I guess I didn't really understand about it. The point is, I'm now thinking about going natural. And I feel very calm about it. Maybe this sounds crazy, but the thought of a needle that big piercing into my spine ( and all the variables that could cause negative things to happen because of it) are more scary to me then pushing her out with no medication.

I think my plan for now is this: Play it by ear, and feel the moments. Plan on going natural but if things get to a point where I just can't handle the pain or it becomes more dangerous for me to try because she's big then to go with it (and hopefully it's still at a time when they are able to administer it to me).

Cristian is good with whatever ( and I guess if I was the husband in this situation I would leave it entirely up to my wife). I hope he's ready, and for the most part I think he is. I had a dream last night, it was about him washing Violets hair for the first time. It made me very happy. And I hope he lasts through everything and doesn't pass out. I need him! I think he's just as ready as I am to have her here, or at least be far enough along where we're up at the hospital getting ready for everything.

She's dropped lower. I have my next appt this coming Monday and hopefully I'm dilated to SOMETHING. ANYTHING.
Some good news:
We're paying off the shop this month. All my stuff is in for Medicaid. And I finally got my ticket situation taken care of. Some more things we can check off our list!
Love our life.