I'm Cool

Ah! This last week has been one of great personal progress for me. Several days ago I saw something on my Instagram feed that really brought up a rush of negative emotions. I've been dealing with some really weird stuff with....people (for lack of a better word) for awhile. Life happens, and I get that relationships die out, personalities change, and it's all good. However, when I have a good thing going I really try to hold onto it, especially with friends because making friends or connections with people just isn't something which comes easily to me.
Anyway, the photo that popped up on IG made me realize I've been holding on to a lot of relationships that in all honesty are just..done. They aren't "a good thing" for me anymore. And not like they've ended in big, bad, terrible ways but I think I've been waiting for things to go back to somewhat "normal" with a lot of people, for a really long time. And it's not going to happen because of one thing or another. And the way I've been feeling about that has been negative.

I did a thing though.
A bold thing.
I just removed several of these people from off of all my social media. I dunno. For some this may be dramatic, but it works in the Chelsea playbook. I look at my life as chapters and not a running river that flows through situations, people, and experiences. For me, my life is a chapter book, and it was time to close the chapter and move on and pursue other relationships that will be meaningful and positive for me during this part of my life. These connections and relationships were holding me down even more then I realized. And in every sense. Spiritually, emotionally, mentally, and in some cases yes, physically.
As soon as I did this "cleanse", an invisible weight just lifted off my shoulders. I've met some new girl friends, I'm spending more of my time outdoors with my daughter-which is something I feel I mention in every post but it is truly something that makes me happy, I started a book club with some intimate friends (and am taking suggestions for a great book to read, and let me know if you want to join!), I'm exploring talents long forgotten, and working on some new skills. But mostly the shell I've had wrapped around myself is becoming thinner, and the light brighter. To be taking the initiative and making plans (and following through) with old and new friends is a leap for me. A huge gigantic scary leap and I feel free.

With all of this progress a new mantra for my life (at this time) has been discovered:

Have Fun Every Day

 

Because truly I don't think I've been having real fun for a minute. My life is full of love for my family, service for my family, routine, and in all of that, yes there is fun. I could laugh more though, I could be more adventurous, I could try harder to be active in the amazing friendships that I do have, I could be better in a billion different areas, I could go out of my comfort zone and really do something amazing. That's all part of my mantra. Have Fun Every Day.

 

 

So that's what I've been doing. And it's real progress. And I'm cool.