So it's been awhile since I've posted on this thing. We just celebrated Halloween a few weeks ago. We dressed Violet up as Wonder Woman. It was great, she looked so cute AND her daddy LOVED her costume. He's such a geek. He didn't end up getting off work early (as they told him he was) so we missed out on going trick or treating, but we had a good time anyways. I've kept all the left over Halloween candy in a bucket. Violet absolutely loves taking the candy out of the bucket and then putting it back in. Might have to put a stop to this fun game however since she found out that if you take the wrappers off they are much more delicious. She has blue candy all over one of her little outfits now.
The last couple of weeks Cristian and I have tried hard to make sure we go out on a date ( just the 2 of us) at least once a week. The last couple of weeks we've been to play pool, minature golf, and bowl. This week I think we're going to go catch a movie. Should be fun, and I love having that alone time to do things with him outside of our home.
In other news Thanksgiving is coming up and after that Christmas! I'm so excited to decorate my cute little home and make delicious Christmas treats and buy and wrap presents and maybe start some family traditions.
More later.
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Monday, October 1, 2012
The little things
Now for an update.
We have found 2 new shows to continue our ritual of Tuesday nights. We are really loving the new season of Bones, and also have discovered a new little favorite called The Mob Doctor. It's pretty fun having this to look forward to on Tuesday nights.
Violet has started eating solid foods and is basically a champ at eating from a spoon now, I also thinks she's really enjoying being perhaps a little bit more full at night before she drops off to sleep. Right now we're just on rice cereal, but in the following weeks we plan on introducing her to carrots, bananas, etc. Should be fun.
I've also still been pretty good at having lunches and dinners ready for my husband when he's off work. I'm afraid of the kitchen but am very proud of myself for doing what I've done so far. Also, my routine has been working out really great for me and in the weight loss department I'm down 8 lbs. Most of that is water weight but I am slowly starting to feel better, and am starting to notice a real difference on the days when I don't eat very healthy. It truly is amazing what a good diet can do for the soul, and Cristian is doing a good job at being supportive.
Along with some other goals, I've decided to try and read more! I love books but haven't felt I had time, or haven't made time to do some more reading. My goal was 4 books a week, but I've decided to cut it down to 2. I think that's manageable, and hopefully it will help me stay away from the television a bit more. It's so easy to just sit down and watch, but truthfully I'd rather sit down and read. I feel a lot better about it.
Been doing some more decorating. We have new pillows and pillowcases, and hopefully this next week we can get a real blanket for our bed instead of using 2-3 old shabby ones for our bed. I'm also going to get a nightstand because waking up in the middle of the night to check on Violet and stepping on everything I keep on the side of the bed really is lame. So I'm excited about that.
I've been keeping up better on the journal that I have going for Violet and hopefully in the next couple of weeks I have more to write about then all the stupid little things that no one really cares to think about.
Until then, here are some picture of our latest adventures. :D Cheers everyone.
Monday, September 24, 2012
Saving
So we've finally figured out a budget system that has successfully proven to be awesome over the past month. The best part about this whole new thing is that we'll be saving several hundred dollars a month if we stick to it and no major emergencies come up (they probably will though right?). I think this has been figured out just in time to. My family has been talking about having our family reunion in either Fiji or Australia (in about 2 years) and tickets will be pricey. I'm all for it though and I really hope that we can stick to this.
The last couple weeks have been adventures. We had our last couple of days at the outdoor swimming pool with Violet, and then we finally made it down to Hogle Zoo ( something we've been trying to do for awhile). It was good for us to get out, splurge, and do something different. I think we all needed it and I felt fully refreshed ready to tackle life when we got back. Cristian even got to eat is pho.
I've been thinking about getting a job and the restaurant I worked at when Cristian and I first met. They're re-opening ( they closed because of flooding and other things) and with the way things are going it might just be good for me to have a small part time job. Lessen the stress on Cristian. Give me something do so I feel like I'm contributing a little more to the welfare of my family. Cristian isn't a huge fan of the idea but it would only be about 2 shifts a week and I think the benefits would out weigh the cons.
Anyway.
Violet, of course is learning more and more each day, and get stronger with each passing moment. I know I sound like a mom but she truly is growing up SO fast to me. The other day I was nursing her and looking down on that precious little face of hers. I started crying because of how happy I felt. She makes everything okay, all the time. Sure like with everything else there are tough moments and I can't always figure out what is it that makes her cry or fuss, but at the end of the day when I kiss her little chubby cheeks goodnight I am happy. I feel peace. I feel like being a mom is the only thing I really want to do with my life, because so far it's been the most satisfying experience OF my life. And there are always new things to learn, or research, or figure out. She really is my everything and I'm trying to soak up all the moments because who knows what tomorrow could bring.
I love her.
I love Cristian.
I love our little family.
In less mushy news I've been decorating our house!!
The bathroom is done, I'm working on the kitchen, and I've been coming up with some fall awesomeness for our living room and mantle. I even went out and bought pumpkins for our porch and a lovely little fall wreath for our door. I've also been working very hard at becoming more confident in the kitchen. I've been trying to do new things. Spicy Thai noodles, pot roast, lime infused honey crusted chicken ( all of these thanks to Pinterest) and all have pleased my husband very much. I'm not the best when it comes to cooking, but I am trying to learn and maybe one day I'll call myself a cook. Not today though lol.
My weight loss program.
I am pleased to report that the workout group I've joined ( which started just last week) is awesome and I have thus far lost 3lbs-4 lbs before the program on my own. It's hard waking up, and even worse when I feel sore and achey with a 4 month old to take care of the rest of the day-but my mood is improving, it's something that I'm doing for me (I love my family, but am SO glad that I have this little part of the day entirely to myself), and I am starting to feel so much better.
Halloween is coming up and we've decided on a costume for Violet. Won't be unveiling the mystery yet, but I DO need to start working on her costume. Pretty excited about it.
All around things are good, and hopefully looking up in the future also.
:D
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
No More Shows
So my program was pushed back until Sept 17th. I already started though a few days ago because I couldn't wait and have dropped 4 lbs. Feeling pretty good, but it is going to be VERY hard getting up in the morning since Violet has decided to be on a random schedule out of nowhere. Hopefully we can get that all sorted and I can get enough sleep to be able to get up and work out.
She's growing up.
She's rolled over once or twice, has found her toes, has started to really giggle more and more and is becoming more aware of everything around her. She's so much fun, and we really can't get enough of her.
Story time.
This last Sunday we went to feed the ducks (as we do every Sunday). For some reason there were a TON of them there. Seriously. I've never seen so many ducks at that dam. There was such a commotion with all the little kids tossing in bread and ducks quacking here and there. Violet though it was HILARIOUS. She just started laughing so hard while Cristian tried to get her close enough to them to really see them. She had a great time, and I think we did to just hearing that cute little laugh of hers. She's the best.
There are little things like that every day that give me reason to smile. No matter how hard the night is with her, or how little sleep I get, or how hungry I feel, her little smile after a good feed and a good nap lift my soul. Her little dimple makes it all worth it to me and I love her so much.
Cristian has been such a help with her. And around the house. He's so good at giving her baths, helping me out with the dishes and taking out the trash. I really feel like we've gotten ourselves into a good groove and it's great.
Some things coming up:
We are FINALLY getting Cristian his ring. It's about time right? And now it's happening. We're heading down on Thursday to get it and I'm so excited!
Violet is having her second round of shots here in the next couple of weeks. Not really excited about that one, but we DID survive the last and we'll do the same thing here in a few weeks.
Selling one of Cristian's motors that are in storage. It will be nice to have some more money in savings, and maybe a bit to play with.
Getting the house ready for Halloween!! I feel like a 5 year old but I can't wait to carve pumpkins, get candy for Halloweeners, and get a costume for Violet. We already know what she's going as, but I think I'll leave that to the imagination for a just a bit longer... she's going to be adorable.. and Cristian LOVES the idea!
Other news:
We watch Hell's Kitchen and MasterChef together every Tuesday night. Those shows had their finales last night... I don't know what we're going to do. Find a new show I guess. We are also going to be doing our own Mystery Box Challenge here in a few days.
And now. A proud mommy/wife moment.
Today Cristian surprised me. He has a very kind heart, and I know that because I see what he does within our own home. Today he came home for lunch with the thought of making some food for one of the homeless veterans who hangs around WalMart. It made me so happy I almost started crying. It was a good reminder that there is plenty to do here in the valley. I've been longing of going on another Humanitarian Aid trip and have been sad because we have no funds for me to do it, but it was awesome for him to show me that there are ways I can help people out here. And doing that I think makes both of us happy. I'm so proud of him and he really does want to become a better person, and that makes me want to be a better person also. Enough mush ;)
And now for some blessing photos of Violet!
She wasn't the easiest to work with, but I think we got a few great shots of her.
So fun :D
She's growing up.
She's rolled over once or twice, has found her toes, has started to really giggle more and more and is becoming more aware of everything around her. She's so much fun, and we really can't get enough of her.
Story time.
This last Sunday we went to feed the ducks (as we do every Sunday). For some reason there were a TON of them there. Seriously. I've never seen so many ducks at that dam. There was such a commotion with all the little kids tossing in bread and ducks quacking here and there. Violet though it was HILARIOUS. She just started laughing so hard while Cristian tried to get her close enough to them to really see them. She had a great time, and I think we did to just hearing that cute little laugh of hers. She's the best.
There are little things like that every day that give me reason to smile. No matter how hard the night is with her, or how little sleep I get, or how hungry I feel, her little smile after a good feed and a good nap lift my soul. Her little dimple makes it all worth it to me and I love her so much.
Cristian has been such a help with her. And around the house. He's so good at giving her baths, helping me out with the dishes and taking out the trash. I really feel like we've gotten ourselves into a good groove and it's great.
Some things coming up:
We are FINALLY getting Cristian his ring. It's about time right? And now it's happening. We're heading down on Thursday to get it and I'm so excited!
Violet is having her second round of shots here in the next couple of weeks. Not really excited about that one, but we DID survive the last and we'll do the same thing here in a few weeks.
Selling one of Cristian's motors that are in storage. It will be nice to have some more money in savings, and maybe a bit to play with.
Getting the house ready for Halloween!! I feel like a 5 year old but I can't wait to carve pumpkins, get candy for Halloweeners, and get a costume for Violet. We already know what she's going as, but I think I'll leave that to the imagination for a just a bit longer... she's going to be adorable.. and Cristian LOVES the idea!
Other news:
We watch Hell's Kitchen and MasterChef together every Tuesday night. Those shows had their finales last night... I don't know what we're going to do. Find a new show I guess. We are also going to be doing our own Mystery Box Challenge here in a few days.
And now. A proud mommy/wife moment.
Today Cristian surprised me. He has a very kind heart, and I know that because I see what he does within our own home. Today he came home for lunch with the thought of making some food for one of the homeless veterans who hangs around WalMart. It made me so happy I almost started crying. It was a good reminder that there is plenty to do here in the valley. I've been longing of going on another Humanitarian Aid trip and have been sad because we have no funds for me to do it, but it was awesome for him to show me that there are ways I can help people out here. And doing that I think makes both of us happy. I'm so proud of him and he really does want to become a better person, and that makes me want to be a better person also. Enough mush ;)
And now for some blessing photos of Violet!
She wasn't the easiest to work with, but I think we got a few great shots of her.So fun :D
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Ultimate Loser
So, things have been good. I've gotten into a pretty good groove with Violet and I've been doing a good job at the wifey things... making lunches and dinners, keeping the house clean, our laundry up to date, etc. I feel pretty good. Ready to start doing something for me though.
Which is why I'm doing the Ultimate Loser again at our local gym. The last time I did it I lost 40lbs in 3 months. It was amazing. No tricks, no gimmicks, just lots of hard work and a crazy change in my diet. It was hard and the first 2 weeks were a little rough getting used to everything but it was SO worth it. And I kept it off until I started gaining weight with my pregnancy. Now that I've gotten into a pretty good routine, I've decided I want to focus a little bit more on myself and this will be a great way to jump start it.
Sept 5th really can't come soon enough.
Cristian is doing a great job at work, and I'm doing my best to make things good and happy for him at home because it stressed him out so much. I've also been trying to get to bed earlier every night so I can wake up and get breakfast for my man also. It's slowly coming together.
Violet is due here for another appt in the next 2 weeks and after that we'll set up another appt for follow up shots-not looking forward to that um.... AT ALL. I feel good about doing it, but it's still kinda hard not wanting my baby girl to feel pain.
Hmm...
More pictures soon. My daddy took some of me and my family at a swim night the other evening. I hope they turned out cute because we sure don't have enough of all 3 of us together.
Happy Tuesday!
Which is why I'm doing the Ultimate Loser again at our local gym. The last time I did it I lost 40lbs in 3 months. It was amazing. No tricks, no gimmicks, just lots of hard work and a crazy change in my diet. It was hard and the first 2 weeks were a little rough getting used to everything but it was SO worth it. And I kept it off until I started gaining weight with my pregnancy. Now that I've gotten into a pretty good routine, I've decided I want to focus a little bit more on myself and this will be a great way to jump start it.
Sept 5th really can't come soon enough.
Cristian is doing a great job at work, and I'm doing my best to make things good and happy for him at home because it stressed him out so much. I've also been trying to get to bed earlier every night so I can wake up and get breakfast for my man also. It's slowly coming together.
Violet is due here for another appt in the next 2 weeks and after that we'll set up another appt for follow up shots-not looking forward to that um.... AT ALL. I feel good about doing it, but it's still kinda hard not wanting my baby girl to feel pain.
Hmm...
More pictures soon. My daddy took some of me and my family at a swim night the other evening. I hope they turned out cute because we sure don't have enough of all 3 of us together.
Happy Tuesday!
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
It's Been Awhile
Yes, indeed it has.
Well, Violet got her shots done a few weeks ago. It was kind of pathetic. I knew going into it I would have a hard time, and it was true. I cried more than my sweet baby girl did, but when I hear her wailing in that sad little voice of hers because of pain it hurts me as well. I hate it. She was pretty fussy for the following few days but she's all good now and things have been good.
She's rolled over by herself one more time since the first time I commented on it a few weeks ago.
In more news we moved out of the downstairs apartment and are now upstairs. It's a million times better. Big windows, a real living room, and a second bedroom for my baby girl. Course she can't use it until we have enough money to buy a baby monitor, and a much larger bathroom with a tub. This was a plus because Violet is too big for the bath that we bought her and now we have a real one! We also have a some pretty cool neighbors now. Haven't hung out to much with them, but Cristian and he seem to get along pretty well.
I finally started going to my ward. The one that I'm supposed to be going to. It was great. I met a bunch of new people and many of them have new babies so Violet will have some friends to hang out with. And maybe her mommy and daddy will too.
Oh dear. She's amazing, and we can't get enough of her.
Some blessing dress photos and some other fun ones to come soon.
Well, Violet got her shots done a few weeks ago. It was kind of pathetic. I knew going into it I would have a hard time, and it was true. I cried more than my sweet baby girl did, but when I hear her wailing in that sad little voice of hers because of pain it hurts me as well. I hate it. She was pretty fussy for the following few days but she's all good now and things have been good.
She's rolled over by herself one more time since the first time I commented on it a few weeks ago.
In more news we moved out of the downstairs apartment and are now upstairs. It's a million times better. Big windows, a real living room, and a second bedroom for my baby girl. Course she can't use it until we have enough money to buy a baby monitor, and a much larger bathroom with a tub. This was a plus because Violet is too big for the bath that we bought her and now we have a real one! We also have a some pretty cool neighbors now. Haven't hung out to much with them, but Cristian and he seem to get along pretty well.
I finally started going to my ward. The one that I'm supposed to be going to. It was great. I met a bunch of new people and many of them have new babies so Violet will have some friends to hang out with. And maybe her mommy and daddy will too.
Oh dear. She's amazing, and we can't get enough of her.
Some blessing dress photos and some other fun ones to come soon.
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Yay! VIolet!
It's been awhile.
And a lot has happened.
Violet is now learning how to use her legs. All I have to do it hold onto her little hands to steady her and she's standing up on those things! It's pretty fun to see, and she gets this really silly grin on her face when she knows she accomplishing something. I think she really likes it. And I LOVE seeing her getting stronger.
Coming up this week are her shots. As her mom I think it's pretty normal for me to feel nervous about her getting them. But Cristian will be with us and hopefully she isn't too sad about it.
We've been thinking about moving. We like our apartment and we absolutely LOVE our landlord, but I think it's time we get out of the basement. We've been looking at a few houses and some newer above ground apartments and if we can swing it hopefully we'll be out in the next 6-9 months. I'd like sooner. Not really looking forward to spending another winter in that basement. It's fine for now though, and our place now certainly has it's perks. Washer and dryer, partially furnished, everything included, and it's a good place for the 3 of us now. Eventually though Violet will need her own room and I would just like some more space..bigger windows-these types of things.
Cristian's still working away at the same place.
It's been interesting. 2 weeks ago one of his good buddies from work quit to get a job in flooring. The guy who took his place used to work at a car place so he and Cristian get along great. This other friend of his who left was a little wearing on me, and I think Cristian to. He'd come home and complain and complain and complain about work and all the things that would go on there, and I know that this other coworker would do. There was a negative vibe for awhile. With this new guy I guess all they talk about all day long is cars... And Cristian comes home much happier and less stressed, which makes it a little easier on me. It's good. And I think we're both much happier without this other person bringing the mood down all the time.
My brother, his wife and my niece and nephew are coming in from North Carolina for a funeral. And while the circumstances are not ideal, it will be nice for all of them to meet my little girl! I'm so excited to show her off. And then around the beginning of August Jasmin comes home and she'll get to do the same thing. It'll be good.
I think Thursday after we run some errands we're going to go to the zoo with Violet.
More pictures soon!
And a lot has happened.
Violet is now learning how to use her legs. All I have to do it hold onto her little hands to steady her and she's standing up on those things! It's pretty fun to see, and she gets this really silly grin on her face when she knows she accomplishing something. I think she really likes it. And I LOVE seeing her getting stronger.
Coming up this week are her shots. As her mom I think it's pretty normal for me to feel nervous about her getting them. But Cristian will be with us and hopefully she isn't too sad about it.
We've been thinking about moving. We like our apartment and we absolutely LOVE our landlord, but I think it's time we get out of the basement. We've been looking at a few houses and some newer above ground apartments and if we can swing it hopefully we'll be out in the next 6-9 months. I'd like sooner. Not really looking forward to spending another winter in that basement. It's fine for now though, and our place now certainly has it's perks. Washer and dryer, partially furnished, everything included, and it's a good place for the 3 of us now. Eventually though Violet will need her own room and I would just like some more space..bigger windows-these types of things.
Cristian's still working away at the same place.
It's been interesting. 2 weeks ago one of his good buddies from work quit to get a job in flooring. The guy who took his place used to work at a car place so he and Cristian get along great. This other friend of his who left was a little wearing on me, and I think Cristian to. He'd come home and complain and complain and complain about work and all the things that would go on there, and I know that this other coworker would do. There was a negative vibe for awhile. With this new guy I guess all they talk about all day long is cars... And Cristian comes home much happier and less stressed, which makes it a little easier on me. It's good. And I think we're both much happier without this other person bringing the mood down all the time.
My brother, his wife and my niece and nephew are coming in from North Carolina for a funeral. And while the circumstances are not ideal, it will be nice for all of them to meet my little girl! I'm so excited to show her off. And then around the beginning of August Jasmin comes home and she'll get to do the same thing. It'll be good.
I think Thursday after we run some errands we're going to go to the zoo with Violet.
More pictures soon!
Tuesday, July 3, 2012
Monday, July 2, 2012
Sea horse or Charlie horse?
Violet's such a little twerp! Last night Cristian and I decided to stay up late and watch a couple movies. I figured it would be fine since she wakes up every couple of hours anyways. We put her to bed around 11pm and guess what time she decided to wake up? 7am. 8 solid hours of sleep and her mom missed out because she was up till around 3am with her man. Had to happen right? Right.
It's okay though. I'm glad she had a solid sleep, and she's been great all day today. Good enough that I felt comfortable running around and getting some things done today while her grandma watched her. It was good. Laundry, dishes, vacuuming, rent, stocking up on diapers, and I even got a work out which included a good dose of sunshine. All in all, a pretty good day. Now I need to figure out something for dinner, and figure out what we're going to do with Cristian's 2 days off. We decided going down to SLC was out since we're tight on money right now (when have we not been lol), so maybe we'll do some camping somewhere around here. The only thing is getting something to repel bugs off our baby girl..... we'll see.
Wess came by early this morning to spray the outside of the house again. We seriously have the best landlord ever. It will be a sad day when we move (but hopefully that won't happen for awhile, especially if our neighbors decide to move so we can have the upstairs with a 2nd bedroom). And tomorrow after I take Cristian back to work and come out to my parents he's going to go in and spray the inside of our house. Feel pretty good about that, and we don't have to pay for it.
Tonight is Hell's Kitchen and MasterChef night at the Navas house.
And then I think for me and baby girl we're going to try and head to bed early.
We had a really fun walk yesterday where we saw ducks and flowers and played for a little bit under the shade of the trees at the middle school. Good times.
Last night Cristian spazzed out in bed.
"Honey I think I just got a sea horse"
"A sea horse?"
"Yeah a cramp"
"Oh.. you mean Charlie horse?"
"....yeah, whatever".
Man he's funny.
Friday, June 29, 2012
LGN diet start up
It looks like we need to spray our house again. We've got spiders coming out of all the drains and sinks. Really freaking me out, so tonight when Cristian gets off work we're going to spray all the windows and doors, the chimney, the sinks, everywhere and hopefully we don't see anymore for awhile-if ever.
My 6 weeks is up today for not working out and doing hardcore physical activity. So tomorrow I'm heading to the gym after Violet's second feed and I couldn't be more excited. Been going stir crazy in the house and have had some minor bipolar-like episodes which makes me think that getting out and doing some more things for me would be good for, well, our whole family. It'll mean being up pretty early, and I'm worried about not finding some time during the day to get a nap in...but hopefully after a week or two of sticking to it I'll have more energy, feel a lot better and maybe all the things that have been frustrating me will seem more manageable.
Been trying to spend lots of time with Violet outside since she enjoys it so much, and since it's actually really good for me too. Also. Cristian and I have a bet. He thinks that I can't catch up to him as far as skin tone does, but I haven't been out in the sun as I normally am in summer because I'm no working at the pool currently. If he wins the bet by August that he's darker than me, he wants tickets to Germany? Um..ok. I haven't decided what my prize will be, and it's the only one that matter because I WILL be winning this bet.
Good news:
Violet's blessing dress if finished, we just need to figure out when her blessing will happen.
Cristian got a raise at work which we're both really excited about.
I can get back into my work out groove starting tomorrow.
Had some amazing grilled burgers with Cristian at his job this afternoon.
Cristian is doing a great job at work, and he's doing so well taking care of Violet and her crazy mom. Especially with all the spiders, crazy episodes, etc. I love him so much and I hope things get better with me so I can start taking better care of him. I've kind of been a mess lately.
Right now I'm out at my parents watching "So You Think You Can Dance?". Gonna finish up here, do some grocery shopping, clean our house up a little bit, and hopefully get some dinner going. All of this as long as my darling daughter cooperates. Things are good, and they're about to get better :D
My 6 weeks is up today for not working out and doing hardcore physical activity. So tomorrow I'm heading to the gym after Violet's second feed and I couldn't be more excited. Been going stir crazy in the house and have had some minor bipolar-like episodes which makes me think that getting out and doing some more things for me would be good for, well, our whole family. It'll mean being up pretty early, and I'm worried about not finding some time during the day to get a nap in...but hopefully after a week or two of sticking to it I'll have more energy, feel a lot better and maybe all the things that have been frustrating me will seem more manageable.
Been trying to spend lots of time with Violet outside since she enjoys it so much, and since it's actually really good for me too. Also. Cristian and I have a bet. He thinks that I can't catch up to him as far as skin tone does, but I haven't been out in the sun as I normally am in summer because I'm no working at the pool currently. If he wins the bet by August that he's darker than me, he wants tickets to Germany? Um..ok. I haven't decided what my prize will be, and it's the only one that matter because I WILL be winning this bet.
Good news:
Violet's blessing dress if finished, we just need to figure out when her blessing will happen.
Cristian got a raise at work which we're both really excited about.
I can get back into my work out groove starting tomorrow.
Had some amazing grilled burgers with Cristian at his job this afternoon.
Cristian is doing a great job at work, and he's doing so well taking care of Violet and her crazy mom. Especially with all the spiders, crazy episodes, etc. I love him so much and I hope things get better with me so I can start taking better care of him. I've kind of been a mess lately.
Right now I'm out at my parents watching "So You Think You Can Dance?". Gonna finish up here, do some grocery shopping, clean our house up a little bit, and hopefully get some dinner going. All of this as long as my darling daughter cooperates. Things are good, and they're about to get better :D
Friday, June 22, 2012
Watermelon
I love Thursdays.
Cristian's day off.
He had some things to do in the morning, so I spent my morning with Violet which ended up with us playing at the park near our house. My mom came down a little later with some ice cream and we spent a little time walking around the park in the sunshine. It was great, and I love the new little sling my cousin Maria got me to put Violet in. And she loves it to.
Can I just say I'm so happy my little one is a sun baby? She loves it. And I hope that sticks with her as she grows up.
Later we went on a drive to Bear Lake. I figured there wouldn't be much in the way of sandy beaches, but I was hoping for a little bit of rock we could all walk along. No such luck. The Lake is still very high and there wasn't much room for walking around. It was still good though and Cristian and I had a good chat on the way up there. After some lunch we headed home and once there I decided since we didn't get to the swimming pool, we'd have water time in our yard. I was expecting her to be all awake and excited but as soon as her little body hit the warm water combined with the bright sunshine she fell asleep in her little bath. Hilarious. But it was fun for mom and dad to watch her just bob around in there for awhile. Here she is all passed out lol.
And then this is after we pulled her out of the back and had her in the shade before we headed inside. She looks so sad about it doesn't she? Hope this means she's a water baby like her mommy! And Cristian... I actually really like this photo of him. There aren't many where he's just smiling but this is a step in that direction. He's so handsome.
We ended our day watching Hell's Kitchen on our rickety old couch with Violet squawking and carrying on in the background. We had a pretty early night to with her, and mom got 7 hours of sleep. A short hour feeding time, and another 5 hour nap after that. Good times.
Our life is good. So happy, so happy, so happy!
PS, her grandma bought her the adorable watermelon suit.
Cristian's day off.
He had some things to do in the morning, so I spent my morning with Violet which ended up with us playing at the park near our house. My mom came down a little later with some ice cream and we spent a little time walking around the park in the sunshine. It was great, and I love the new little sling my cousin Maria got me to put Violet in. And she loves it to.
Can I just say I'm so happy my little one is a sun baby? She loves it. And I hope that sticks with her as she grows up.
Later we went on a drive to Bear Lake. I figured there wouldn't be much in the way of sandy beaches, but I was hoping for a little bit of rock we could all walk along. No such luck. The Lake is still very high and there wasn't much room for walking around. It was still good though and Cristian and I had a good chat on the way up there. After some lunch we headed home and once there I decided since we didn't get to the swimming pool, we'd have water time in our yard. I was expecting her to be all awake and excited but as soon as her little body hit the warm water combined with the bright sunshine she fell asleep in her little bath. Hilarious. But it was fun for mom and dad to watch her just bob around in there for awhile. Here she is all passed out lol.
And then this is after we pulled her out of the back and had her in the shade before we headed inside. She looks so sad about it doesn't she? Hope this means she's a water baby like her mommy! And Cristian... I actually really like this photo of him. There aren't many where he's just smiling but this is a step in that direction. He's so handsome.
We ended our day watching Hell's Kitchen on our rickety old couch with Violet squawking and carrying on in the background. We had a pretty early night to with her, and mom got 7 hours of sleep. A short hour feeding time, and another 5 hour nap after that. Good times.
Our life is good. So happy, so happy, so happy!
PS, her grandma bought her the adorable watermelon suit.
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
This is my husband with our sweet little girl on Father's Day. He's pretty sexy if I do say so myself and I LOVE this picture of him (though I wish he was smiling instead of poking his tongue out). And what in the world is Violet doing? Lol.It was a good day. He went fishing with his friends in the morning, hung out with us at First Dam in the afternoon and then went with his friends again later in the evening to watch "the game" somewhere. I don't know what game it was, nor do I care- I'm just glad he had some fun and spent some time with his friends. Happy Father's Day to him right?
Tomorrow we're going to the pool with Violet. I'm so excited to get her in her cute little watermelon suit and head to play in the water!
Yesterday afternoon I went with my cousin Maria to First Dam with her kids (Railee Jo and Chantry) to feed the ducks. It was amazing, and talking with her about everything going on was refreshing. She's so happy and positive about being a mom, which is exactly how I feel about my new role and place in life. Most people I talk to ( with the exception of my own mom, Maria, and her mom) seem to have a negative opinion about it. I mean, if you didn't want to have kids.. why did you? And even if your experience is negative, why would you feel the need to share that with other people who are thoroughly enjoying it? I don't get it. The thoughts and opinions I've heard surrounding being pregnant and being a mom have just been such a surprise. Especially for the small town I live in. It's crazy, but I'm glad I have someone to spend time with who loves her kids and all the hard things that go with it. That's how I want to be. And that's how I feel I am.
I'm down 24 lbs.
This is her. My angel. My world. My everything.
I've never been happier.
Things are going well with our family. We've paid off some more things which is a HUGE relief. And it looks like we'll be getting approved for some more financial help here soon-which also will be a huge weight off my shoulders. Things are looking amazing!
Friday, June 15, 2012
One Month
Yes. Violet is exactly one month old today. I definitely don't believe it. At least not all the way. The only proof there is of the fact is the growing rolls culminating on my babies thighs. She's definitely putting on some baby fat weight and is gradually becoming more alert. To celebrate her 1 month I'm taking some more photos today. I had everything planned out, but of course as it goes with most things these days it was foiled slightly. I can't find the mocassins her grandpa bought for her! They've been sitting on my dresser for the last several weeks and then I go to use them.. and abracadabra-they're out of here. Cristian doesn't know where they're at either. It's quite a conundrum. I hope they turn up!
Yesterday was awesome. We spent our morning getting things done. Heading to the banks, talking with a rep at the hospital to get some coverage. Contacting old employers to give us termination notices and then Summerfest. It was WONDERFUL to walk around, get some sunshine, enjoy some food and get a few things for Violet. We ran into a few people we know, and yours truly got herself a Henna tattoo. It's pretty sweet if I do say so myself. Mermaid. Yep. Whatever. Later in the day we came home and had movie night. It was a really good day.
Which was good because our night turned out to be a strange one. Cristian's been having weird nightmares lately. Along with the nightmares has come a few other oddities like sleep talking, and if it's not talking it's weird noises you'd probably only hear in a horror movie. Totally creeps me out when I'm super sensitive to sound lately. Last night he sat up in bed, mumbled a few thing rolled over and crashed again. Later, when I was getting up with Violet I left her on the floor for a minute while I grabbed a drink. I came back in, put her back in her crib and went to get back in bed when he threw his pillow across the room, snatched mine, rolled over on it and fell back asleep. What? Yeah I don't know. And he doesn't remember anything so.. whatever. Maybe I should start recording this stuff. He's funny.
So for today:
Taking care of my parents gardens and lawn.
Should probably help Talisa out by helping clean the kitchen.
Wait for bright eyes to fall into a deeper slumber so we can play dress up and take some pictures.
Heading back to Summerfest later this afternoon to get a few things.
And then once Cristian is off work we're going to buy me a belt and TW.
Good things ahead.
I'm so happy :D
Yesterday was awesome. We spent our morning getting things done. Heading to the banks, talking with a rep at the hospital to get some coverage. Contacting old employers to give us termination notices and then Summerfest. It was WONDERFUL to walk around, get some sunshine, enjoy some food and get a few things for Violet. We ran into a few people we know, and yours truly got herself a Henna tattoo. It's pretty sweet if I do say so myself. Mermaid. Yep. Whatever. Later in the day we came home and had movie night. It was a really good day.
Which was good because our night turned out to be a strange one. Cristian's been having weird nightmares lately. Along with the nightmares has come a few other oddities like sleep talking, and if it's not talking it's weird noises you'd probably only hear in a horror movie. Totally creeps me out when I'm super sensitive to sound lately. Last night he sat up in bed, mumbled a few thing rolled over and crashed again. Later, when I was getting up with Violet I left her on the floor for a minute while I grabbed a drink. I came back in, put her back in her crib and went to get back in bed when he threw his pillow across the room, snatched mine, rolled over on it and fell back asleep. What? Yeah I don't know. And he doesn't remember anything so.. whatever. Maybe I should start recording this stuff. He's funny.
So for today:
Taking care of my parents gardens and lawn.
Should probably help Talisa out by helping clean the kitchen.
Wait for bright eyes to fall into a deeper slumber so we can play dress up and take some pictures.
Heading back to Summerfest later this afternoon to get a few things.
And then once Cristian is off work we're going to buy me a belt and TW.
Good things ahead.
I'm so happy :D
Monday, June 11, 2012
Good Things
My sweet little bright eyes is growing up so fast. I can't believe she's coming up on 1 month. It makes me happy and sad simultaneously. I love how little, fragile and dependent on me she is, but I also am excited about her becoming a little more sturdy and playful. I've heard her giggle a few times and the feeling it gives me isn't something I can really explain. She's a newborn so it's natural for her to really only be content when she's full and has had enough sleep. This means if she's awake she's mostly crying. And if she's not doing that, then she's sleeping.
It's been a little wearing on me. And I'm sure Cristian to. It's made me feel sometimes that I have a sad baby. I'm ready for the giggles and smiles and babble. I'd like to know my baby is a happy one. And I'd like her to know, her parents are happy parents also.
I'm starting to figure out different things she likes. When I give her a bath she doesn't really like it when I'm sponging down her body (because it gets cold) but she LOVES when I wash and massage her hair and brush it afterwards. And when she's sad a quick solution is to walk with her outside. She loves the outdoors and becomes all calm and relaxed when fresh air and sunshine hit her cute little face. And my favorite, when she's finished eating and she's got milk all over her face. She sits there, all stuffed to the gills and content, eyes closed and lips all puckered. It's moments like those I'm clinging to, the ones where I can look down on her beautiful face and I know without a doubt in that particular moment my Violet is happy. I love when she's happy.
Right now I'm out at my parents house, she's sleeping on the ground next to me- her hands all stretched out above her head.I can't get over how beautiful she is. I don't know how I'm going to do this, be her mom and figure all these things out but I know I want to. And that I have to. Because I love her more than anything.
Cristian is being such a good husband and daddy. It continually amazes me how much he really does love both of us. His crazy wife and a needy daughter. I've been finding spiders all over our apartment lately. I mean, that would be gross for your average girl, but for me it's absolutely traumatic. I get all itchy and shivery when I think about them. Putting garbage into a bag we have in our bathroom and seeing one crawling around in there was what put me at my wits end last night. I was packing up some of Violet's things to come and sleep out at my parents when my sweet husband told me he would search the entire house and kill any he found if we would only stay at home with him. He literally got down on his knees and combed the carpet looking for any creepy crawling thing that could potentially cause me more discomfort. He emptied all the garbage cans and then went out and bought some things to fumigate our place. I don't know what I'd do without him. He takes really good care of us.
As we were laying in bed last night just pillow talking and cuddling a thought occured to me:
"Oh no.."
"What is it honey?"
"I'm the worse wife in the world."
"What?"
"I totally forgot today was Father's Day"
"Babe, that's not till' the 17th"
"Oh good... lol"
I've been thinking the last couple weeks of what I could put together for him. I have a few ideas but will refrain from sharing them on here in the off chance he reads this. He deserves everything. I'm so lucky to be married to my best friend.
It's been a little wearing on me. And I'm sure Cristian to. It's made me feel sometimes that I have a sad baby. I'm ready for the giggles and smiles and babble. I'd like to know my baby is a happy one. And I'd like her to know, her parents are happy parents also.
I'm starting to figure out different things she likes. When I give her a bath she doesn't really like it when I'm sponging down her body (because it gets cold) but she LOVES when I wash and massage her hair and brush it afterwards. And when she's sad a quick solution is to walk with her outside. She loves the outdoors and becomes all calm and relaxed when fresh air and sunshine hit her cute little face. And my favorite, when she's finished eating and she's got milk all over her face. She sits there, all stuffed to the gills and content, eyes closed and lips all puckered. It's moments like those I'm clinging to, the ones where I can look down on her beautiful face and I know without a doubt in that particular moment my Violet is happy. I love when she's happy.
Right now I'm out at my parents house, she's sleeping on the ground next to me- her hands all stretched out above her head.I can't get over how beautiful she is. I don't know how I'm going to do this, be her mom and figure all these things out but I know I want to. And that I have to. Because I love her more than anything.
Cristian is being such a good husband and daddy. It continually amazes me how much he really does love both of us. His crazy wife and a needy daughter. I've been finding spiders all over our apartment lately. I mean, that would be gross for your average girl, but for me it's absolutely traumatic. I get all itchy and shivery when I think about them. Putting garbage into a bag we have in our bathroom and seeing one crawling around in there was what put me at my wits end last night. I was packing up some of Violet's things to come and sleep out at my parents when my sweet husband told me he would search the entire house and kill any he found if we would only stay at home with him. He literally got down on his knees and combed the carpet looking for any creepy crawling thing that could potentially cause me more discomfort. He emptied all the garbage cans and then went out and bought some things to fumigate our place. I don't know what I'd do without him. He takes really good care of us.
As we were laying in bed last night just pillow talking and cuddling a thought occured to me:
"Oh no.."
"What is it honey?"
"I'm the worse wife in the world."
"What?"
"I totally forgot today was Father's Day"
"Babe, that's not till' the 17th"
"Oh good... lol"
I've been thinking the last couple weeks of what I could put together for him. I have a few ideas but will refrain from sharing them on here in the off chance he reads this. He deserves everything. I'm so lucky to be married to my best friend.
Friday, June 8, 2012
Food
Had a dream last night in which my little family was living in a beautiful white beach house somewhere in California. Nothing really exciting happened. I just remember walking around our white spacious home, and looking out the windows towards the beautiful blue sea. Violet was there, she was bigger and walking though I couldn't see her face. She was wearing a cute little jumper and her dad was wandering around the house doing something.
It was a nice dream, which was a relief since both of us have been having quite a few nightmares lately.We don't know why. But as I was feeding Violet this morning around 3:40am Cristian woke up to one. Told me. Then fell back asleep. I think he tried to tell me about it this morning while he was getting ready for work and I was feeding Violet again-but I can't remember what it was about because I was so out of it.
Anyways.
The last couple days have been a little rough with her. She doesn't want to fall asleep until around 12:20am, and until then she cries and fusses, and wants to be held, and then wants to be on the floor, and then wants to be fed every 15 minute, then stops.. needless to say a slight impatience with her has been creeping in every once in awhile and I've had to put her in a safe place and then walk away for a little while until the impatience goes away. I've figured out one solution for when she gets like this-taking her outside helps her to calm down for a bit which works out since we both should probably be getting more sun.
Some good things though:
She's starting to sleep better at night.
AND the best news so far, I heard miss bright eyes GIGGLE yesterday. I heard a foreign noise from her, looked over and she had this big smile on her face, was waving her little arms around and was giggling. It was over quick. I think the giggle was just as foreign to her as it was to me because she suddenly got this surprised look on her face, got super quite, and then burst into tears. It was pretty funny. It's fun to watch her getting used to her body and discovering what all the different parts can do. She does this thing where she pokes out her little tongue. So cute.
I'm loving it, even though there are frustrations now and then.
Monday, June 4, 2012
Show Stopper
My little girl knows how to draw a crowd. The other day I walked into the store to purchase some diapers, I was surrounded in an instant by about 10 people all admiring Violet. It was pretty funny, and it took me a little while to get out of there because of her constantly growing fan base. She's darling, and also has WAY more friends than I do which is funny. I need to get some more pictures up here, and probably print some actual ones out because she's growing up so fast! I can't believe she's already 2 weeks old. What??
We've gotten into a pretty good routine as far as her eating and sleeping goes. And it feels SO GOOD to be able to move around the way I used to. No more heaving myself around anymore or struggling to tie my shoes and shave my legs. We even played some Dance Central 2 the other night on the Kinect and I've still got my mojo- though to be fair-Cristian DID win the first match. Also, something else more epic... I spent 2 hours and 7 minutes away from her over the weekend. That's the most time I've EVER spent away from her so far. We went and saw "SnowWhite and the Huntsmen" with our friends Connor and Joni. Auntie Talisa and her friend Maddie watched her for us. It was rough, not going to lie. I kept checking my phone throughout the movie and Cristian kept leaning over and whispering "It's okay Chelsea, she's fine. I know you're worried but they would call if something was wrong." He's pretty great.
He's settled into this whole husband/daddy thing quite well. And he's been there to help me through all the frustrations and tears when I've struggled with "mom" things. I'm pretty lucky to have found him, and I LOVE being married to him. He's honestly my best friend and I think Violet is pretty damn lucky to have him as a daddy :D. He's so cute. He keeps talking about how he's gonna have to beat up all the boys ( I get to beat up all the girls) and how beautiful she is. I LOVE seeing him be that way with her.
Anyways. The movie was okay, had some super weird parts in it, but...uh.. yeah.
And once home he was right, everything was fine-though I did feel relieved to be back with my little girl. She's everything to me.
So we've been trying to put together a little vacation. Cristian gets a week of paid vacation once he's worked at this place for 6 months.. and we're coming up on that THIS month :D. Thinking of getting 4 other couples together to rent a houseboat down at Lake Powell for a week (5 days technically). One of the couples we've invited and who are "down" to go (Taya and Jake) have a boat and jet skis and said they would bring all of that if we can get this together. Can you imagine? 5 days of nothing but sunshine, boating, water skiing, fishing, camping, and having a good time. I really hope it all works out and with the deal they have going on right now it would only be about $80 per person and everything's included. Really hope this works out, we wouldn't go until about September (apparently that's the best time to go) which gives us a little bit more time to get organized.
Love our life.
Love my family.
We've gotten into a pretty good routine as far as her eating and sleeping goes. And it feels SO GOOD to be able to move around the way I used to. No more heaving myself around anymore or struggling to tie my shoes and shave my legs. We even played some Dance Central 2 the other night on the Kinect and I've still got my mojo- though to be fair-Cristian DID win the first match. Also, something else more epic... I spent 2 hours and 7 minutes away from her over the weekend. That's the most time I've EVER spent away from her so far. We went and saw "SnowWhite and the Huntsmen" with our friends Connor and Joni. Auntie Talisa and her friend Maddie watched her for us. It was rough, not going to lie. I kept checking my phone throughout the movie and Cristian kept leaning over and whispering "It's okay Chelsea, she's fine. I know you're worried but they would call if something was wrong." He's pretty great.
He's settled into this whole husband/daddy thing quite well. And he's been there to help me through all the frustrations and tears when I've struggled with "mom" things. I'm pretty lucky to have found him, and I LOVE being married to him. He's honestly my best friend and I think Violet is pretty damn lucky to have him as a daddy :D. He's so cute. He keeps talking about how he's gonna have to beat up all the boys ( I get to beat up all the girls) and how beautiful she is. I LOVE seeing him be that way with her.
Anyways. The movie was okay, had some super weird parts in it, but...uh.. yeah.
And once home he was right, everything was fine-though I did feel relieved to be back with my little girl. She's everything to me.
So we've been trying to put together a little vacation. Cristian gets a week of paid vacation once he's worked at this place for 6 months.. and we're coming up on that THIS month :D. Thinking of getting 4 other couples together to rent a houseboat down at Lake Powell for a week (5 days technically). One of the couples we've invited and who are "down" to go (Taya and Jake) have a boat and jet skis and said they would bring all of that if we can get this together. Can you imagine? 5 days of nothing but sunshine, boating, water skiing, fishing, camping, and having a good time. I really hope it all works out and with the deal they have going on right now it would only be about $80 per person and everything's included. Really hope this works out, we wouldn't go until about September (apparently that's the best time to go) which gives us a little bit more time to get organized.
Love our life.
Love my family.
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Rough Nights
Yep, this 2nd week is proving a little bit harder than the first week. I don't think anything has really changed with her, but the lack of sleep is really starting to catch up with me I think.
Cristian woke up to both of us crying last night. My poor man.
Things will get better though. And some exciting news- hopefully this weekend we're going fishing and camping. We tried for catfish yesterday and I had a really good time. Sure, it was mostly just sitting there but it was relaxing and it felt awesome to be doing something with my cute little family. Didn't get any pictures because I forgot my camera at my parents house. Next time though.
Also we went and did some shopping for Violet. Neither one of us had bought her anything until yesterday (we've been really blessed with people giving her gifts-so nice of everyone!). We got her a couple new outfits we really like. It was fun. The next thing we need to do (according to Cristian) is get me a new belt. None of my pants stay up (which is great!) but... yeah kinda annoying.
I found one in the mall, but I couldn't be bothered asking the lady to get it down for me. Cristian said we will go back after he gets off work and HE'LL ask one of the store employees if they'll get it down for me. He really wants me to get a belt.
So I guess that's what we're doing tonight :D
For now, while grandma is watching my little one I'm going to make some cookies, and possibly start on dinner for tonight.
Cristian woke up to both of us crying last night. My poor man.
Things will get better though. And some exciting news- hopefully this weekend we're going fishing and camping. We tried for catfish yesterday and I had a really good time. Sure, it was mostly just sitting there but it was relaxing and it felt awesome to be doing something with my cute little family. Didn't get any pictures because I forgot my camera at my parents house. Next time though.
Also we went and did some shopping for Violet. Neither one of us had bought her anything until yesterday (we've been really blessed with people giving her gifts-so nice of everyone!). We got her a couple new outfits we really like. It was fun. The next thing we need to do (according to Cristian) is get me a new belt. None of my pants stay up (which is great!) but... yeah kinda annoying.
I found one in the mall, but I couldn't be bothered asking the lady to get it down for me. Cristian said we will go back after he gets off work and HE'LL ask one of the store employees if they'll get it down for me. He really wants me to get a belt.
So I guess that's what we're doing tonight :D
For now, while grandma is watching my little one I'm going to make some cookies, and possibly start on dinner for tonight.
Saturday, May 26, 2012
Friday, May 25, 2012
Trickster Child
So Violet is 7 days old, and I'm baffled about where the last 7 days went. I mean seriously... a week has gone by? It feels like I was just in the hospital meeting her for the first time yesterday. This week has obviously been a challenge. She's a tricky little girl, and with her jaundice it's big a challenge to get on a schedule with her. She's extremely sleepy and very hard to wake up to feed. And I feel mean when I've got to wake her from her coma slumber. It's good for her though, that's what I keep saying.
She does this thing where, when I'm changing her diaper, she pees all over her mom. She doesn't do it with Cristian. Just me. Not sure why it happens but she could pee all over me all day long and I wouldn't love her any less, or want to spend any less time with her. She's my world. And I've never felt so needed in my entire life. The last 9 months (10) I've had a hard time trying to find purpose with what I was doing with my life. I mean, I was pregnant, got married in a whirlwind of time (because it was right) and since then hadn't had much to do except sit around and wait. And be frustrated. And wait some more. And deal with the discomfort. And wait some more. With her here, I can honestly say I'm the happiest I've been in awhile.
Sure it's hard. And with the chemical changes going on with my body, and the recovery part of things I've more then once burst into hysterics for no reason. The other day I was in the mall at Motherhood trying on nursing things and for whatever reason I started to feel overwhelmed and broke down in the changing room. Cristian's being so good to me. He hates it when I cry and likes even less when I simply can't explain to him WHY I'm crying. He's been incredibly patient and is so good with Violet.
We're working on it. And I know things will get better for me as I continue to recover.
Yesterday we went down to the big city with my parents and aunt and uncle. I was worried that we would be an annoyance on the little trip with diaper changes and sporadic feeding times and while there was some of that, it was the right thing to do. Get out, walk around, enjoy some sunshine, spend time with my relatives. It was good. And something we'll continue to do.
Tomorrow I'm going on a walk with Cristian's mom and Violet. She needs to see her some more since the last time they all came over I threw a new mom fit. Sighs.
Last night Cristian was the only one to get some real sleep. So today I'm spending time with her out at my parents ( going to hand her over for a few hours) while I catch up on some sleep and do some other things ( like update this blog).
She's beautiful.
I can't get over it.
She does this thing where, when I'm changing her diaper, she pees all over her mom. She doesn't do it with Cristian. Just me. Not sure why it happens but she could pee all over me all day long and I wouldn't love her any less, or want to spend any less time with her. She's my world. And I've never felt so needed in my entire life. The last 9 months (10) I've had a hard time trying to find purpose with what I was doing with my life. I mean, I was pregnant, got married in a whirlwind of time (because it was right) and since then hadn't had much to do except sit around and wait. And be frustrated. And wait some more. And deal with the discomfort. And wait some more. With her here, I can honestly say I'm the happiest I've been in awhile.
Sure it's hard. And with the chemical changes going on with my body, and the recovery part of things I've more then once burst into hysterics for no reason. The other day I was in the mall at Motherhood trying on nursing things and for whatever reason I started to feel overwhelmed and broke down in the changing room. Cristian's being so good to me. He hates it when I cry and likes even less when I simply can't explain to him WHY I'm crying. He's been incredibly patient and is so good with Violet.
We're working on it. And I know things will get better for me as I continue to recover.
Yesterday we went down to the big city with my parents and aunt and uncle. I was worried that we would be an annoyance on the little trip with diaper changes and sporadic feeding times and while there was some of that, it was the right thing to do. Get out, walk around, enjoy some sunshine, spend time with my relatives. It was good. And something we'll continue to do.
Tomorrow I'm going on a walk with Cristian's mom and Violet. She needs to see her some more since the last time they all came over I threw a new mom fit. Sighs.
Last night Cristian was the only one to get some real sleep. So today I'm spending time with her out at my parents ( going to hand her over for a few hours) while I catch up on some sleep and do some other things ( like update this blog).
She's beautiful.
I can't get over it.
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Violet A.
Yep, my baby girl is here!
Which is probably the reason I haven't been able to update this thing. I figure my excuse is a valid one. It all began on May 17th. I started having contractions around 430pm. Cristian was out to lunch with his friends and his phone was dead. I know right? Awesome.
All good though, once they were timing at about 7 minutes apart we figured it was high time to try and get a hold of him. Luckily I was able to through his friend and we were home together in a few minutes sitting and timing, etc.
I've never had cramps before, so I wasn't particularly sure on when I was supposed to go in based on a pain scale. We headed in around 9pm when they were about 4 minutes apart. Up at the hospital they hooked me up to everything, watched me for an hour and then told us to go home. I was shocked. The lady also said if I made it to my next appointment ( four days later) to mention it to my doctor. I almost started laughing, though we did get in the car and head home.
Once there they began getting worse, peaking-for me- around 2 in the morning. I could barely walk and getting to the car, the ride there, getting out of the car, and making my way up to labor and delivery was pretty awful. Once back in there, and hooked up they confirmed that I was indeed in labor. Thank goodness to.
I tried to go natural, but after a few hours I could no longer focus and some anesthesia was the right thing to do. Somehow a few hours later they managed to get the epidural in. Cristian was a champ through the whole thing. Especially with the epidural. I COULD NOT have done that part without him. He held my hands and made me look at him and helped me breathe in and out. It was amazing that I lost the ability to figure that part out on my own. And the position they had me in to stick me with it made me feel as though I wanted to push. It was all very uncomfortable and physically traumatic. Once the epidural was in everything went numb and I passed out for the majority of the labor part. Once it came time to push I was up and ready to give it a try.
I pushed for about 20 minutes and out she slid at 1230pm.
I would try and describe how I felt about seeing her for the first time in detail, but it's not something I can do. All I can say is I've never cried so many tears out of sheer joy and happiness. And never felt so accomplished in my entire life. Or ever seen anything as beautiful as my sweet baby girl- in the entire world.
And that doesn't even come CLOSE to explaining the moment with justice.
It's been quite the transition. And I've had some hiccups along the way. Dealing with the doctors snatching her away here and there, not getting enough sleep, the families, etc. It's all part of the experience and I'm trying really hard to adjust but.. it is hard.
Anyways, we're working on it. And she's amazing.
Pictures to follow soon.
:D
Which is probably the reason I haven't been able to update this thing. I figure my excuse is a valid one. It all began on May 17th. I started having contractions around 430pm. Cristian was out to lunch with his friends and his phone was dead. I know right? Awesome.
All good though, once they were timing at about 7 minutes apart we figured it was high time to try and get a hold of him. Luckily I was able to through his friend and we were home together in a few minutes sitting and timing, etc.
I've never had cramps before, so I wasn't particularly sure on when I was supposed to go in based on a pain scale. We headed in around 9pm when they were about 4 minutes apart. Up at the hospital they hooked me up to everything, watched me for an hour and then told us to go home. I was shocked. The lady also said if I made it to my next appointment ( four days later) to mention it to my doctor. I almost started laughing, though we did get in the car and head home.
Once there they began getting worse, peaking-for me- around 2 in the morning. I could barely walk and getting to the car, the ride there, getting out of the car, and making my way up to labor and delivery was pretty awful. Once back in there, and hooked up they confirmed that I was indeed in labor. Thank goodness to.
I tried to go natural, but after a few hours I could no longer focus and some anesthesia was the right thing to do. Somehow a few hours later they managed to get the epidural in. Cristian was a champ through the whole thing. Especially with the epidural. I COULD NOT have done that part without him. He held my hands and made me look at him and helped me breathe in and out. It was amazing that I lost the ability to figure that part out on my own. And the position they had me in to stick me with it made me feel as though I wanted to push. It was all very uncomfortable and physically traumatic. Once the epidural was in everything went numb and I passed out for the majority of the labor part. Once it came time to push I was up and ready to give it a try.
I pushed for about 20 minutes and out she slid at 1230pm.
I would try and describe how I felt about seeing her for the first time in detail, but it's not something I can do. All I can say is I've never cried so many tears out of sheer joy and happiness. And never felt so accomplished in my entire life. Or ever seen anything as beautiful as my sweet baby girl- in the entire world.
And that doesn't even come CLOSE to explaining the moment with justice.
It's been quite the transition. And I've had some hiccups along the way. Dealing with the doctors snatching her away here and there, not getting enough sleep, the families, etc. It's all part of the experience and I'm trying really hard to adjust but.. it is hard.
Anyways, we're working on it. And she's amazing.
Pictures to follow soon.
:D
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Babies Babies Everywhere!
So today I am feeling extremely blessed. After Cristian went to work I slowly and groggily made my way out to the kitchen ( I couldn't wake up all the way when he was trying to say goodbye). The curtains my mum made me have made SUCH an amazing difference. There was light and happiness in the kitchen and I wanted to be there. For the most part since we've moved in (I do love my apartment, don't get me wrong but it is dark) I haven't really enjoyed spending time there by myself because of the lighting. The curtains have helped so much, and I think the other changes I'm planning on making will also create a huge difference in the mood and feeling in our home. My family has been helping me make those changes and I'm so grateful for them.
The crib also helps. I was walking by our bedroom door this morning while getting some laundry done and I saw it in there. She's coming so soon and today I'm more excited then anxious.
More blessings? Yes.
We have a ton of baby ducks living in the canal by our house. Going outside and watching them, tossing them bread and just enjoying being outside has also been doing WONDERS for me. And I like knowing my sister lives down the road and also sees the ducks waddling up and down the stream. I'm in a good place right now and having her so close to being here I couldn't be more grateful for everything that's going on in my life right now.
I even had enough energy this morning to make Cristian a good lunch.
Ramen Stir-fry- kinda cheap but it works for us. Just throw Ramen noodles in a frying pan with whatever vegetables you want (I used frozen peas and carrots) and let the noodles cook until they are the way you like them. Add the seasoning and there ya go. Next we had some left over moose. So I cooked that up and threw it in the mix also. He really liked it, even though the noodles were a little soft. And we have some left overs.
I'm feeling more and more like myself and things are heading in the right direction.
Today's been and will continue to be a good day.
:D
Here are some pictures. The first one is of the baby robins that have hatched in my mom's Christmas wreath she forgot to take down. The second is at first dam. Cristian and I went there Sunday and saw a mommy duck with her 11 babies. I love this season.
God is amazing. And I'm thankful for the tender mercies and miracles he's allowing to happen in my life.
The crib also helps. I was walking by our bedroom door this morning while getting some laundry done and I saw it in there. She's coming so soon and today I'm more excited then anxious.
More blessings? Yes.
We have a ton of baby ducks living in the canal by our house. Going outside and watching them, tossing them bread and just enjoying being outside has also been doing WONDERS for me. And I like knowing my sister lives down the road and also sees the ducks waddling up and down the stream. I'm in a good place right now and having her so close to being here I couldn't be more grateful for everything that's going on in my life right now.
I even had enough energy this morning to make Cristian a good lunch.
Ramen Stir-fry- kinda cheap but it works for us. Just throw Ramen noodles in a frying pan with whatever vegetables you want (I used frozen peas and carrots) and let the noodles cook until they are the way you like them. Add the seasoning and there ya go. Next we had some left over moose. So I cooked that up and threw it in the mix also. He really liked it, even though the noodles were a little soft. And we have some left overs.
I'm feeling more and more like myself and things are heading in the right direction.
Today's been and will continue to be a good day.
:D
Here are some pictures. The first one is of the baby robins that have hatched in my mom's Christmas wreath she forgot to take down. The second is at first dam. Cristian and I went there Sunday and saw a mommy duck with her 11 babies. I love this season.
God is amazing. And I'm thankful for the tender mercies and miracles he's allowing to happen in my life.
Monday, May 14, 2012
10 days
Finally have a crib, one less thing to worry about.
Appt went well, no further progress though. Neither one of us have gained any weight.
I've been doing some house things.
Finally washed all the windows and cut down the growth around them, mom made new lacy curtains for me that let in MUCH more light, and things are looking better.
Still would like to paint the blue wall yellow, get a bright blanket and pillows for the scoop chair and the black couch, find some kind of wild and funky print to put above our fireplace, and fill the fireplace with a flower box. Our apartment is dark and unhappy. Just trying to brighten it up.
Summer is here! :D
Appt went well, no further progress though. Neither one of us have gained any weight.
I've been doing some house things.
Finally washed all the windows and cut down the growth around them, mom made new lacy curtains for me that let in MUCH more light, and things are looking better.
Still would like to paint the blue wall yellow, get a bright blanket and pillows for the scoop chair and the black couch, find some kind of wild and funky print to put above our fireplace, and fill the fireplace with a flower box. Our apartment is dark and unhappy. Just trying to brighten it up.
Summer is here! :D
Friday, May 11, 2012
Counting Down
Yeah. I think it's safe to say we both are, at this point, becoming impatient. With a little under 2 weeks to go I'm pretty tired and for some reason extremely testy. I'm not meaning to be. I think I've done a pretty good job my entire pregnancy of keeping the hormones to a minimum. Perhaps in trying so hard I repressed everything and now the festering monstrosity is all coming out. Sighs. My poor husband. We still haven't received any word on the crib we were supposed to be getting, and I'm worried because we really just can't afford to buy one right now. It wasn't really in our plan to be purchasing one so I guess we'll see what happens here in the next few days. May a miracle happen right?
We're a little frustrated with the Dr. we've been going to. Don't get me wrong, she's great. But I would like to deliver my baby vaginally, and not through a c-section. I feel my reasons are valid. It's healthier for me and the baby to do it that way, the recovery time is shorter, your chances of having to do it again with future children is MUCH higher-so I don't want to, and I feel as though the "accomplishment" factor will be greater if I can do it naturally and without surgery. And let's be honest, I really don't want a scar either ( I already have enough thank you very much) and I've heard it's a complicated thing when you're trying to breast feed. Of course no one I know has any experience with this so I can't really find anyone to talk to about it. My Dr. thinks she's 8lbs right now. Which would put her close to 10 lbs if I go full term and a week over (which is when they would decide to induce me). In that case the chances of me having to deliver her via C-section are greater, and it bothers me she would wait until that point. It's my body, it's my baby. But I feel as though I have no say in it.
My older sister Jasmin contacted me the other day and I asked her about her situation. She decided to be induced 2 weeks early because of a similar situation and had zero regrets about it. Sighs. I just don't know what to do. My next appt is on Monday-hopefully I'm dilated more and something can be arranged. I DO NOT WANT TO HAVE A C-SECTION. But everyone's acting like this desire is totally crazed or something. What's so hard to understand about it?
2 more payments and the shop is closed.
I guess there's ANOTHER thing we need to add to the list of things to get paid off, so we can't quite start with Snap-On yet because we have this other dealing..to deal with. They just keep coming up-really we just need to sit down and have everything laid out because all these surprises, along with everything else are making me really agitated.
I've been trying to think of things I can do to keep my own sanity. So I'm doing an inspiration board, and yesterday I bought some pretty boxes to put some of Violet's things in. (Pictures to come). Today I need to go and find a cork board, buy some pins and some kind of "over the door" hanger to attach it to. Also need to pic up a frame for my Bob Dylan poster, and maybe FINALLY print out some of our wedding pictures to put in the album we received at the wedding.
Also on my list of things to keep me busy today while Cristian is at work:
Fill up the car.
Pull out money for the shop.
Transfer some money into our Emergency Fund.
Grocery shopping. Other shopping. (light bulbs, soap, dust pan/brush)
And $30 spending money for Cristian to play with for the week.
Finding another bin for Violet's things.
Look up and find a place where we can both learn to kiak.
Try out the rice cooker (Mum bought Cristian one has an early b-day present).
Make a meal plan for the week (I haven't done this..ever. We'll see what happens)
And, if I get brave enough (clean the windows inside and out)-I'm planning on making some new curtains also- some that let in more light because our basement apartment is very dark. Yellow? White? We'll see.
Yesterday was Cristian's day off. We didn't do much, but we did spend some time outside at the dam. The ducks are having their babies and it was pretty fun to see:
We're a little frustrated with the Dr. we've been going to. Don't get me wrong, she's great. But I would like to deliver my baby vaginally, and not through a c-section. I feel my reasons are valid. It's healthier for me and the baby to do it that way, the recovery time is shorter, your chances of having to do it again with future children is MUCH higher-so I don't want to, and I feel as though the "accomplishment" factor will be greater if I can do it naturally and without surgery. And let's be honest, I really don't want a scar either ( I already have enough thank you very much) and I've heard it's a complicated thing when you're trying to breast feed. Of course no one I know has any experience with this so I can't really find anyone to talk to about it. My Dr. thinks she's 8lbs right now. Which would put her close to 10 lbs if I go full term and a week over (which is when they would decide to induce me). In that case the chances of me having to deliver her via C-section are greater, and it bothers me she would wait until that point. It's my body, it's my baby. But I feel as though I have no say in it.
My older sister Jasmin contacted me the other day and I asked her about her situation. She decided to be induced 2 weeks early because of a similar situation and had zero regrets about it. Sighs. I just don't know what to do. My next appt is on Monday-hopefully I'm dilated more and something can be arranged. I DO NOT WANT TO HAVE A C-SECTION. But everyone's acting like this desire is totally crazed or something. What's so hard to understand about it?
2 more payments and the shop is closed.
I guess there's ANOTHER thing we need to add to the list of things to get paid off, so we can't quite start with Snap-On yet because we have this other dealing..to deal with. They just keep coming up-really we just need to sit down and have everything laid out because all these surprises, along with everything else are making me really agitated.
I've been trying to think of things I can do to keep my own sanity. So I'm doing an inspiration board, and yesterday I bought some pretty boxes to put some of Violet's things in. (Pictures to come). Today I need to go and find a cork board, buy some pins and some kind of "over the door" hanger to attach it to. Also need to pic up a frame for my Bob Dylan poster, and maybe FINALLY print out some of our wedding pictures to put in the album we received at the wedding.
Also on my list of things to keep me busy today while Cristian is at work:
Fill up the car.
Pull out money for the shop.
Transfer some money into our Emergency Fund.
Grocery shopping. Other shopping. (light bulbs, soap, dust pan/brush)
And $30 spending money for Cristian to play with for the week.
Finding another bin for Violet's things.
Look up and find a place where we can both learn to kiak.
Try out the rice cooker (Mum bought Cristian one has an early b-day present).
Make a meal plan for the week (I haven't done this..ever. We'll see what happens)
And, if I get brave enough (clean the windows inside and out)-I'm planning on making some new curtains also- some that let in more light because our basement apartment is very dark. Yellow? White? We'll see.
Yesterday was Cristian's day off. We didn't do much, but we did spend some time outside at the dam. The ducks are having their babies and it was pretty fun to see:
Monday, May 7, 2012
Walks
I'm dilated to 1 cm!
It's not much, I realize this, but I haven't felt that kind of relief in a really long time. I'm also 60% effaced-I'm still confused as to what this actually means, but I know it's good. And I'm glad that I'm seeing some kind of progress towards labor. Please baby, come soon so I don't have to do a C-section ( she's 8 lbs right now). I talked to my doctor a little bit more about the epidural and I guess we'll just stick with my plan. See how things go, play it by the moments and see what happens.
It was nice to hear I was progressing.
My weight is still great. I put on a 1lb this week, but it's normal. It's kind of NOT normal I've been the same for the past 6 weeks so.. not to worried about that. Just need to keep walking and eating healthy, etc etc.
We are for sure getting the crib this week, and I want to start working on a mobile thing to put above it for her. I've been looking on Pinterest ( yes, totally addicted) and I've found some really cute ideas. We also received a ton more clothes from Cristian's parents. I don't know where they're getting them. And I am appreciative. I wish we had more money though so I could pick out things I like and I want her to wear. Guess we'll see what happens. And we don't know how big she's going to be-what will fit, what won't. What we really need is more diapers. Sighs.
Anyways, that's the good news.
We're doing great :D
It's not much, I realize this, but I haven't felt that kind of relief in a really long time. I'm also 60% effaced-I'm still confused as to what this actually means, but I know it's good. And I'm glad that I'm seeing some kind of progress towards labor. Please baby, come soon so I don't have to do a C-section ( she's 8 lbs right now). I talked to my doctor a little bit more about the epidural and I guess we'll just stick with my plan. See how things go, play it by the moments and see what happens.
It was nice to hear I was progressing.
My weight is still great. I put on a 1lb this week, but it's normal. It's kind of NOT normal I've been the same for the past 6 weeks so.. not to worried about that. Just need to keep walking and eating healthy, etc etc.
We are for sure getting the crib this week, and I want to start working on a mobile thing to put above it for her. I've been looking on Pinterest ( yes, totally addicted) and I've found some really cute ideas. We also received a ton more clothes from Cristian's parents. I don't know where they're getting them. And I am appreciative. I wish we had more money though so I could pick out things I like and I want her to wear. Guess we'll see what happens. And we don't know how big she's going to be-what will fit, what won't. What we really need is more diapers. Sighs.
Anyways, that's the good news.
We're doing great :D
Saturday, May 5, 2012
Avengers and The Epidural
Really loving this song lately.
So tonight we have tickets to go and see "The Avengers". Cristian's been freaking out about it for a couple months now, so why he waited until yesterday afternoon to look and see if tickets were available is kind of beyond me. So I spent the better part of my day driving around to all the movie theaters ( when I told him it would be easier to just buy the tickets online) to see if they had open seats. He was at work. None of them did, so I went online and bought our tickets (I know things, he should learn this). So tonight at 9pm we're going. Not sure why I am, I'm not really into it and with how uncomfortable I feel, sitting in a movie for 2 hours really doesn't sound appealing. He was quite insistent though- I don't understand him sometimes. Connor is coming to which will be fun. We love Connor.
I think it would be hilarious ( and SO choice) if my water decides to break while we're going in, or even while we're sitting in the theater. I would like something to happen. I don't care if my labor is long and my delivery is hard-I'm ready for this little one to start making her way into the world. Bring on those contractions please!!
On that note with our birthing classes I wanted to share this little gem:
He looks pretty good right? And what a good sport he was. I think it was a good experience for him-but yeah-as far as this goes I definitely had more fun with this is particular. I liked the class and the instructor was pretty funny. I didn't necessarily learn a whole bunch of new things, but I think it was valuable information for Cristian to have. There are things that have gone on, and will go on with the rest of my pregnancy I feel will be good for him to know about and understand more. And him having a little bit more understanding as to what my body has gone through for the past 10 months is good for him to know. It hasn't been easy..even though my pregnancy has been a breeze as far as pregnancies in general go. I think it was good for him to understand what will go on with me after our little girl is here also. The recovery, things that may or may not present themselves. I secretly think the class is mostly for the men of the women heading into this situation :D.
She talked about the epidural. I knew I wouldn't like hearing about it, and I prayed they wouldn't show up the needle (which they didn't-except on a little diagram via powerpoint). Just talking about it was enough to make me question whether or not it was something I wanted to do. I kind of started to panic and there are a lot of things I guess I didn't really understand about it. The point is, I'm now thinking about going natural. And I feel very calm about it. Maybe this sounds crazy, but the thought of a needle that big piercing into my spine ( and all the variables that could cause negative things to happen because of it) are more scary to me then pushing her out with no medication.
I think my plan for now is this: Play it by ear, and feel the moments. Plan on going natural but if things get to a point where I just can't handle the pain or it becomes more dangerous for me to try because she's big then to go with it (and hopefully it's still at a time when they are able to administer it to me).
Cristian is good with whatever ( and I guess if I was the husband in this situation I would leave it entirely up to my wife). I hope he's ready, and for the most part I think he is. I had a dream last night, it was about him washing Violets hair for the first time. It made me very happy. And I hope he lasts through everything and doesn't pass out. I need him! I think he's just as ready as I am to have her here, or at least be far enough along where we're up at the hospital getting ready for everything.
She's dropped lower. I have my next appt this coming Monday and hopefully I'm dilated to SOMETHING. ANYTHING.
Some good news:
We're paying off the shop this month. All my stuff is in for Medicaid. And I finally got my ticket situation taken care of. Some more things we can check off our list!
Love our life.
Wednesday, May 2, 2012
Birthing Classes & Hallucinations
Yes, we are in the middle of taking birthing classes. I wasn't sure whether or not we would go through with it, mostly because we heard such horrible things about it. It wasn't helpful, waste of money, blah blah blah but I'm glad we're taking it. I feel (already with just one class period done) a little more prepared for what will happen once I enter the hospital. And I believe much of the information is valuable for Cristian to know about since he's going to be my birthing coach.
It's all winding down so quickly. I can't believe how fast everything has happened and how close we are. My pregnancy has been a breeze and it has flown by quickly. It could be because in the middle of all of this I was planning our wedding, we were working out where to live and gunning for jobs for Cristian. May have sped up the process with all those things going on in the middle of this chaos. I feel ready for her to be here.
It's funny.
I say that to people and all of them say "Well, you say that now but after about a week you'll wish she was back in your womb". I've been told numerous times that the "real" work will begin once she's here and I'm expecting things to change a lot. I'm expecting exhaustion and frustration. I expect to feel inadequate, as a wife and mother, as I try and get into a routine of things and get used to her-and find ways to make Cristian a part of the process. But mostly I'm just expecting myself to feel accomplished for making it through my pregnancy (and delivering a live human child), and happy to have my little girl to start a life with. She's going to be beautiful.
My pregnancy has been haunted with everyone's horror stories about what happened with their process and what happened with their labor and delivery, and all the things they-for some reason- feel a need to warn me about. Endless people have told me myths and do's and don'ts so ridiculous it would blow anyone's mind. It's like people have felt a need to scare me about everything. I've had some negative experiences with people saying unkind and irrational things about my weight and the way I look-as if I haven't been insecure about it the whole time right? (I'm in the recommended weight gain for my body, and I knew she would be a bigger baby because of how Cristian and I both were). One lady at a furniture told me I looked like a whale (literally) and she couldn't believe how big I looked at 8 months (literally). I look at myself as being healthy and lucky. All the weight has been on my stomach. I have no back fat, butt fat, leg fat, face or arm fat and I'm happy with that. I've kept up with at least SOME kind of exercise on a daily basis ( whether that be actually getting out of bed and going to water aerobics, or going on a walk around town, or simply going up and down the stairs a few times) When I don't respond to these comments the next thing I hear is "But don't worry, I'm sure all of it will come off quickly"-like they secretly think I'm going to have a hard time with that. Or like because THEY never lost theirs, I'm not going to lose mine. I hate being lumped in a crowd of a certain type of people. And I don't appreciate the undermining and false sincerity about things.
Kinda sick of the negative vibes-I wonder if anyone else experienced this- so mostly I'm trying to ignore all of it and keep the attitude I have about it. I've made some flexible plans with how to work out certain things with the changes coming up in my family's life.
Sure, things will be hard. VERY hard sometimes.
But I guess I know it will be worth it and that's what I'm trying to focus on.
And I want to be a happy, excited, and healthy mother and wife for my family.
So that's my goal.
Time for class!
PS- just realized that I never posted about the "hallucinations". Next time.
It's all winding down so quickly. I can't believe how fast everything has happened and how close we are. My pregnancy has been a breeze and it has flown by quickly. It could be because in the middle of all of this I was planning our wedding, we were working out where to live and gunning for jobs for Cristian. May have sped up the process with all those things going on in the middle of this chaos. I feel ready for her to be here.
It's funny.
I say that to people and all of them say "Well, you say that now but after about a week you'll wish she was back in your womb". I've been told numerous times that the "real" work will begin once she's here and I'm expecting things to change a lot. I'm expecting exhaustion and frustration. I expect to feel inadequate, as a wife and mother, as I try and get into a routine of things and get used to her-and find ways to make Cristian a part of the process. But mostly I'm just expecting myself to feel accomplished for making it through my pregnancy (and delivering a live human child), and happy to have my little girl to start a life with. She's going to be beautiful.
My pregnancy has been haunted with everyone's horror stories about what happened with their process and what happened with their labor and delivery, and all the things they-for some reason- feel a need to warn me about. Endless people have told me myths and do's and don'ts so ridiculous it would blow anyone's mind. It's like people have felt a need to scare me about everything. I've had some negative experiences with people saying unkind and irrational things about my weight and the way I look-as if I haven't been insecure about it the whole time right? (I'm in the recommended weight gain for my body, and I knew she would be a bigger baby because of how Cristian and I both were). One lady at a furniture told me I looked like a whale (literally) and she couldn't believe how big I looked at 8 months (literally). I look at myself as being healthy and lucky. All the weight has been on my stomach. I have no back fat, butt fat, leg fat, face or arm fat and I'm happy with that. I've kept up with at least SOME kind of exercise on a daily basis ( whether that be actually getting out of bed and going to water aerobics, or going on a walk around town, or simply going up and down the stairs a few times) When I don't respond to these comments the next thing I hear is "But don't worry, I'm sure all of it will come off quickly"-like they secretly think I'm going to have a hard time with that. Or like because THEY never lost theirs, I'm not going to lose mine. I hate being lumped in a crowd of a certain type of people. And I don't appreciate the undermining and false sincerity about things.
Kinda sick of the negative vibes-I wonder if anyone else experienced this- so mostly I'm trying to ignore all of it and keep the attitude I have about it. I've made some flexible plans with how to work out certain things with the changes coming up in my family's life.
Sure, things will be hard. VERY hard sometimes.
But I guess I know it will be worth it and that's what I'm trying to focus on.
And I want to be a happy, excited, and healthy mother and wife for my family.
So that's my goal.
Time for class!
PS- just realized that I never posted about the "hallucinations". Next time.
Monday, April 30, 2012
9lbs and Sunday traditions
Went down to the dam to feed the ducks yesterday. And we saw a mama duck with her baby ducklings! They were a little bigger than chicks but it was still cool to see. Hopefully we'll see some baby geese here in the next few days. Cristian is weird about photos so I find myself constantly sneaking them. He might have to get over the picture taking thing cause I think it's great! And I totally want my daughter to have pictures of us when she's older. A fun personal past time of mine is looking back in my parents old photo albums and catching a glimpse into the people they were at my age. Good times, and I'd like to do the same thing for my family.
Anyway, had another appointment this morning.
Was able to clear some things up. She's looking fine and my doctor was glad about the increase in movement. I guess the problem was I needed to break my meals up into smaller groups and eat more throughout the day as opposed to 2 big meals a day. It makes sense, but it is a challenge to do that, especially when I've kind of trained myself to not eat unless I'm hungry. Looks like the guy who did my ultrasound at 5 months LIED. My official due date is May 24th, just like they said at the beginning. This being said, NOW my daughter looks more like she'll be a 9 pounder. Still crossing my fingers she'll come early, and apparently so is my doctor. Guess we'll see how things go. Also-happy note- haven't gained any weight. :D
Last night we went over to Voune's house for a little Sunday BBQ. It was pretty fun, after everyone got over talking about how huge I apparently am. I still don't really see it, as I'm exactly where I should be for my body. Sure, I look pregnant-but doesn't everyone 3 weeks away from delivering? Anyway. It's Tiana's 2nd birthday next Sunday (Cristian god daughter) and we won't be able to go (to far away from home) so we picked up her presents early. 3 huge puzzles, a water toy with bucket and shovel attached and some bubbles. Perfect for a 2 year old I say, and she loved the puzzle pieces! Points to us.
Hoping our tax return comes soon!
Sunday, April 29, 2012
Greek Salad
Made the salad last night for Cristian. I was POSITIVE he wasn't going to enjoy it because it's basically all the ingredients he doesn't like. Spinach, red onion, olives, and tomatoes. He tried it though and flipped out. Thought it was delicious and told me he'd wished I'd made more. I probably would have, had I known. That was the original plan but I didn't want it all to go bad if I was the only one eating it. I suppose we found a salad that's a keeper. And he liked the feta cheese (I can't believe he'd never tried it before).
Anyway.
This morning I tried to make him pancakes before I left for church. It was from a mix I got with a bunch of other things from one of Victoria's room mates. I burned the first couple and then when I finally made one which was decent I tried it. To me pancakes are supposed to be light and fluffy but this thing was so dense I started choking on it. Needless to say I scrapped the whole thing and he ended up making ME breakfast instead. Eggs, tortilla, ham, salsa. It was pretty good.
Church was nice.
In Relief Society while sitting there I was hit by a hot flash out of nowhere. I started sweating so bad and my stomach felt so odd. I started to fan myself but then found I was shaking like crazy! Part of me was like "Oh my, here we go.. it's happening!!" and the other half was "Bah! I'm not ready!". Turns out it's normal ( and she's not coming yet), and probably just has something do to with my hormones. I was a little shaky walking out to the car and the craving for ice cream hit. LOL. Man.. this pregnancy. So once back at my parents house I had a few scoops of Super Chocolate Brownie ice cream Talisa found buried away in the freezer. Totally hit the spot and now I'm thinking about taking a nap.
Later Cristian and I will go feed the ducks, and then he's got to go out to his parents for some things. Maybe I'll take a nap while he does that- Tacos for dinner.
Have a lovely Sunday everyone! Relax and enjoy this sunshine!
Anyway.
This morning I tried to make him pancakes before I left for church. It was from a mix I got with a bunch of other things from one of Victoria's room mates. I burned the first couple and then when I finally made one which was decent I tried it. To me pancakes are supposed to be light and fluffy but this thing was so dense I started choking on it. Needless to say I scrapped the whole thing and he ended up making ME breakfast instead. Eggs, tortilla, ham, salsa. It was pretty good.
Church was nice.
In Relief Society while sitting there I was hit by a hot flash out of nowhere. I started sweating so bad and my stomach felt so odd. I started to fan myself but then found I was shaking like crazy! Part of me was like "Oh my, here we go.. it's happening!!" and the other half was "Bah! I'm not ready!". Turns out it's normal ( and she's not coming yet), and probably just has something do to with my hormones. I was a little shaky walking out to the car and the craving for ice cream hit. LOL. Man.. this pregnancy. So once back at my parents house I had a few scoops of Super Chocolate Brownie ice cream Talisa found buried away in the freezer. Totally hit the spot and now I'm thinking about taking a nap.
Later Cristian and I will go feed the ducks, and then he's got to go out to his parents for some things. Maybe I'll take a nap while he does that- Tacos for dinner.
Have a lovely Sunday everyone! Relax and enjoy this sunshine!
Friday, April 27, 2012
Spiders and Cologne
Cristian killed a spider for me yesterday.
I came home and saw one crawling along the window of the inside of our house. Stealthily I slipped my shoe off and smashed the sucker into the glass. Cristian came running up the stairs probably afraid if I went after the other one the glass would break. LOL. He killed it and then we set up a spider trap by the door. (I also plan on spraying the doors and windows with something that will assure their deaths) It's a really old house so there are cracks under all the doors and the windows are not in the best condition. That's fine. But doesn't mean I'm willing to let these disgusting creatures become a part of our home. :D
I'm just so glad he's killing them now. Before he had this weird thing about it. "Well, they're not hurting anyone". Actually. Yes. They are. Me in fact. They are hurting ME. I pulled the "well you're going to have to start killing them unless you want your wife and daughter to be bitten..." act on him and since then he's responded wonderfully. :D
I wanted to do a little update on our budget system were working into place.
We're going to start with the envelope system. It's worked well for my parents and I think it would work well for him since you can physically see the money depleting as you go through each envelope. I think the problem with him using a card is you really don't see the money, you just slide and swipe and go about on your little way. I'm also trying to help him understand that just knowing how much is in our checking isn't budgeting. It's about planning where the money from each pay check goes, and once you're out-you can't buy anything or dip into emergency funds. I think this will work. If it doesn't I have some other ideas in mind. Of course I'm open to ideas if any of you have them. We definitely need to get this under control though.
Yesterday I went to a cooking circut with mum. It was awesome. We talked about salads and were provided with a few recipes. Also, we were able to try 2 of them. My favorite was the Greek Salad. I'm hopefully going to purchase the ingredients for it today and all the fixings for the dressing.
Here's the recipe:
Ingredients
Spinach
Tomatoes, diced
Cucumbers, sliced
Red onions, sliced paper-thin
Feta cheese
Sunflower seeds
Olives, pitted
Pepperoncinis
Vinaigrette Suggestion
1/2 C Olive oil
1/4 C red wine vinegar
1 t garlic powder
1 teaspoon dried oregano
1/4 C lemon juice
Salt and pepper
Directions
Combine all salad ingredients in the proportion that you like.
Whisk oil, vinegar, garlic powder, oregano, lemon juice in bowl to blend.
Season to taste with salt and pepper.
Add a little vinaigrette to salad and toss to coat.
Seriously could have eat a HUGE bowl of this. Delicious. And totally healthy!
In other news I think it's high time we purchase Cristian some cologne. He would be embarrassed about me sharing this but I think it's hilarious. I've been wondering what he's been wearing because the smell has been really familiar. For whatever reason I couldn't place it and this morning I discovered what he's been doing. We have an air freshner in our room that has a timer to spray every 36 minutes ( strange time I know). He's been taking it out of the sprayer every morning and using that to "freshen up" as opposed to some legitimate cologne. Maybe I should feel sad at the lengths we're both going to in order to save money for a little family but I just laughed and laughed... I'm still laughing. So after work today we're going to sort that out (poor guy) and hopefully we'll have a few minutes to look around at scales.
I'm really looking forward to moving around again and being more physical once Violet has made her appearance. I've been looking up workouts I can do from home, and some that even incorporate her into them. It'll be good to have that to work on. I'm also on this cook of looking up some healthier meals for us to eat and that are within our budget. Good things ahead.
I'm out at my parents posting this. The mama bird is still on her little next by the front door. She has 4-5 eggs in there! I can't wait to see some baby birds chirping in that thing! So cute!
Saw this, so true :D
I came home and saw one crawling along the window of the inside of our house. Stealthily I slipped my shoe off and smashed the sucker into the glass. Cristian came running up the stairs probably afraid if I went after the other one the glass would break. LOL. He killed it and then we set up a spider trap by the door. (I also plan on spraying the doors and windows with something that will assure their deaths) It's a really old house so there are cracks under all the doors and the windows are not in the best condition. That's fine. But doesn't mean I'm willing to let these disgusting creatures become a part of our home. :D
I'm just so glad he's killing them now. Before he had this weird thing about it. "Well, they're not hurting anyone". Actually. Yes. They are. Me in fact. They are hurting ME. I pulled the "well you're going to have to start killing them unless you want your wife and daughter to be bitten..." act on him and since then he's responded wonderfully. :D
I wanted to do a little update on our budget system were working into place.
We're going to start with the envelope system. It's worked well for my parents and I think it would work well for him since you can physically see the money depleting as you go through each envelope. I think the problem with him using a card is you really don't see the money, you just slide and swipe and go about on your little way. I'm also trying to help him understand that just knowing how much is in our checking isn't budgeting. It's about planning where the money from each pay check goes, and once you're out-you can't buy anything or dip into emergency funds. I think this will work. If it doesn't I have some other ideas in mind. Of course I'm open to ideas if any of you have them. We definitely need to get this under control though.
Yesterday I went to a cooking circut with mum. It was awesome. We talked about salads and were provided with a few recipes. Also, we were able to try 2 of them. My favorite was the Greek Salad. I'm hopefully going to purchase the ingredients for it today and all the fixings for the dressing.
Here's the recipe:
Ingredients
Spinach
Tomatoes, diced
Cucumbers, sliced
Red onions, sliced paper-thin
Feta cheese
Sunflower seeds
Olives, pitted
Pepperoncinis
Vinaigrette Suggestion
1/2 C Olive oil
1/4 C red wine vinegar
1 t garlic powder
1 teaspoon dried oregano
1/4 C lemon juice
Salt and pepper
Directions
Combine all salad ingredients in the proportion that you like.
Whisk oil, vinegar, garlic powder, oregano, lemon juice in bowl to blend.
Season to taste with salt and pepper.
Add a little vinaigrette to salad and toss to coat.
Seriously could have eat a HUGE bowl of this. Delicious. And totally healthy!
In other news I think it's high time we purchase Cristian some cologne. He would be embarrassed about me sharing this but I think it's hilarious. I've been wondering what he's been wearing because the smell has been really familiar. For whatever reason I couldn't place it and this morning I discovered what he's been doing. We have an air freshner in our room that has a timer to spray every 36 minutes ( strange time I know). He's been taking it out of the sprayer every morning and using that to "freshen up" as opposed to some legitimate cologne. Maybe I should feel sad at the lengths we're both going to in order to save money for a little family but I just laughed and laughed... I'm still laughing. So after work today we're going to sort that out (poor guy) and hopefully we'll have a few minutes to look around at scales.
I'm really looking forward to moving around again and being more physical once Violet has made her appearance. I've been looking up workouts I can do from home, and some that even incorporate her into them. It'll be good to have that to work on. I'm also on this cook of looking up some healthier meals for us to eat and that are within our budget. Good things ahead.
I'm out at my parents posting this. The mama bird is still on her little next by the front door. She has 4-5 eggs in there! I can't wait to see some baby birds chirping in that thing! So cute!
Saw this, so true :D
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Comcast or Cash?
This morning I had the opportunity to help babysit Tayson (Casi's son), and also Violet's future husband:
That's him on my arm, and this is me 3 weeks away from my due date. It's definitely time for her to make her appearance wouldn't you say? I sure would! Cristian came over for lunch at the house (fish tacos)- I personally thought they were pretty good. Victoria did a good job and I feel full. Later I had to take Cristian back to work.
Cristian and my sister have this..thing..between them. I'm not sure what it is but they like to tease each other relentlessly back and forth. I don't really get it but I suppose as long of them neither actually get upset about something then it's fine. Right? I dunno. Anyway, my point is before we left Cristian decided to pull a little prank on her. This is what it looks like (and I think she has yet to see it):
Here's the story. A few months ago when we were in the process of cleaning out Cristian's shop and closing the place down we needed to find a place to store his car. My parents were kind enough to let us use the left side of their house (where we used to have an old gray van parked) for storing it. We had one of Victoria's friends tow it up and while they were trying to get it off the dolly Victoria headed out somewhere. On her way out of the driveway she crashed into one of the old empty garbage cans by the side of the house. Pretty funny for us, probably a little embarrassing for her but.. whatever. Anyways, Cristian likes to bring this up as often as he can to torment her (in a weird brotherly way) and so this was his way of accomplishing that this afternoon. Not sure what she'll say when she sees it, but I hope she finds it funny.
I finally got invited to Pinterest! I've been waiting for awhile which was probably a good thing because I can already tell I'm going to be one of those addicts. There's just so many things on that sight and so many good ideas. I wish I could come up with amazing creative things to do with leftovers, and old furniture and whatever but..... no. I found this awesome dresser garden. Cristian has an old one we were thinking about using for some of Violet's things, but it's to grungy and dirty and it probably won't get any better by cleaning it- we could use it for that though!
Lots of ideas.
I've got to be home around 4 because I guess some Comcast guy is coming out to check if we can get a signal where we live for wi-fi. Sighs.
That's him on my arm, and this is me 3 weeks away from my due date. It's definitely time for her to make her appearance wouldn't you say? I sure would! Cristian came over for lunch at the house (fish tacos)- I personally thought they were pretty good. Victoria did a good job and I feel full. Later I had to take Cristian back to work.
Cristian and my sister have this..thing..between them. I'm not sure what it is but they like to tease each other relentlessly back and forth. I don't really get it but I suppose as long of them neither actually get upset about something then it's fine. Right? I dunno. Anyway, my point is before we left Cristian decided to pull a little prank on her. This is what it looks like (and I think she has yet to see it):
Here's the story. A few months ago when we were in the process of cleaning out Cristian's shop and closing the place down we needed to find a place to store his car. My parents were kind enough to let us use the left side of their house (where we used to have an old gray van parked) for storing it. We had one of Victoria's friends tow it up and while they were trying to get it off the dolly Victoria headed out somewhere. On her way out of the driveway she crashed into one of the old empty garbage cans by the side of the house. Pretty funny for us, probably a little embarrassing for her but.. whatever. Anyways, Cristian likes to bring this up as often as he can to torment her (in a weird brotherly way) and so this was his way of accomplishing that this afternoon. Not sure what she'll say when she sees it, but I hope she finds it funny.
I finally got invited to Pinterest! I've been waiting for awhile which was probably a good thing because I can already tell I'm going to be one of those addicts. There's just so many things on that sight and so many good ideas. I wish I could come up with amazing creative things to do with leftovers, and old furniture and whatever but..... no. I found this awesome dresser garden. Cristian has an old one we were thinking about using for some of Violet's things, but it's to grungy and dirty and it probably won't get any better by cleaning it- we could use it for that though!
Lots of ideas.
I've got to be home around 4 because I guess some Comcast guy is coming out to check if we can get a signal where we live for wi-fi. Sighs.
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